Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
So in recent days I've kind of semi-sorta decided that I want in on grad school. For linguistics of all things. I still have no bloody idea what I'd do in there, or what I'd do after that, I'm barely getting a handle on how to get in and where I want to go, and every time I try looking things up I feel like smashing my head against a brick with frustration and general despair, but at the same time I sort of feel happier about school than I have in a long time so I feel like I might be doing the right thing for once.
Am semi-regretting that I didn't manage to pull out of my program to get into a linguistics major proper two years ago, but at the same time I can't say that it's all been for nought either. For one thing, my inner Asian-parental-figure is telling me that graduating with a BSc is totally more cool sounding than just a BA although it really isn't.
My mild headache-inducing research is making me feel really uncomfortable with my GPA though D: I mean, yeah, my GPA is solid, but since I don't have much else apart from LOOKIT, I'M DOING OKAY IN SCHOOL! on my resume, I feel like I need to be better. /o\ And my inner Asian-parental-figure wants me to graduate with high distinction instead of just distinction in any case.
OH WELL. Short term plans for the time being in no particular order:
Haul ass to registrar hopefully when the craziness of the beginning-of-semester flurry dies down so that people there will be more inclined to help and less inclined to just try to get me out of there as fast as possible. Mostly just need to ask about graduating this year (because I still want 2010 on my diploma), and how one goes about returning as a non-degree student immediately afterwards. Not sure if I want to actually acquire a linguistics minor, although I'm pretty sure that I could do it.
Flail at professor for advice.
Attempt to summon motivation to magically pull GPA up by 0.05 or so; god knows that I need to be more motivated if I want to do grad school anyway. (This is kind of not really happening.)
In other news, am too lazy to post into my doll LJ thingy, but to the handful of doll people on the flist, I saw this gorgeous SwD Lucas mod on Y!J just now and I am contorted with this feeling of OMG DO WANT BUT CANNOT HAVE /o\ Ughhhh-
Also, my shoulder hurts. *beats it with a stick*
Am semi-regretting that I didn't manage to pull out of my program to get into a linguistics major proper two years ago, but at the same time I can't say that it's all been for nought either. For one thing, my inner Asian-parental-figure is telling me that graduating with a BSc is totally more cool sounding than just a BA although it really isn't.
My mild headache-inducing research is making me feel really uncomfortable with my GPA though D: I mean, yeah, my GPA is solid, but since I don't have much else apart from LOOKIT, I'M DOING OKAY IN SCHOOL! on my resume, I feel like I need to be better. /o\ And my inner Asian-parental-figure wants me to graduate with high distinction instead of just distinction in any case.
OH WELL. Short term plans for the time being in no particular order:
In other news, am too lazy to post into my doll LJ thingy, but to the handful of doll people on the flist, I saw this gorgeous SwD Lucas mod on Y!J just now and I am contorted with this feeling of OMG DO WANT BUT CANNOT HAVE /o\ Ughhhh-
Also, my shoulder hurts. *beats it with a stick*