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Horror of horrors. 2 more days and school will return to envelop the whole of my existence.
Frankly, I believe my current (and apparently endless) despairing episode with English has undermined my self-confidence to the point where my English really DOES suck, and it's really no longer a matter of low self-esteem/modesty/an attempt to cover a bloated ego. Spending several hours trying to think of a workable thesis and then spending many hours afterwards attempting to create an outline of sorts (and being left with a weird, incoherent, and incomplete piece of babble) has left me without much doubt that I am hopeless in this subject.
There's an increasingly large chance that I will be incapable of coming up with a proper thesis and a proper outline for a proper essay within the next day or two, get it checked over (and probably butchered and told to start over), do a draft, get that checked over (and repeat the butchering process), and finish a final essay for next Monday, and still magically get a very good mark which will save me from not going to university.
But of course, slaving over a piece of paper with a pencil and eraser in hand for hours isn't working. So I gave up and started reading Death Note. Finally. After my cousin lent me a burned disc with the manga on it for like what? A year?
If I had a Death Note, I'd kill school. Or at least, I'd kill the standards by which my marks are being cast into oblivion. And homework too.
PS. I may share with the greater community if I find better scans, but cripes, Ryuichi's hair is HOT in their Mints Vol. 5(?) photoshoot. And I want a necklace like his. The boy is a queen princess God and he knows it, I swear.
Frankly, I believe my current (and apparently endless) despairing episode with English has undermined my self-confidence to the point where my English really DOES suck, and it's really no longer a matter of low self-esteem/modesty/an attempt to cover a bloated ego. Spending several hours trying to think of a workable thesis and then spending many hours afterwards attempting to create an outline of sorts (and being left with a weird, incoherent, and incomplete piece of babble) has left me without much doubt that I am hopeless in this subject.
There's an increasingly large chance that I will be incapable of coming up with a proper thesis and a proper outline for a proper essay within the next day or two, get it checked over (and probably butchered and told to start over), do a draft, get that checked over (and repeat the butchering process), and finish a final essay for next Monday, and still magically get a very good mark which will save me from not going to university.
But of course, slaving over a piece of paper with a pencil and eraser in hand for hours isn't working. So I gave up and started reading Death Note. Finally. After my cousin lent me a burned disc with the manga on it for like what? A year?
If I had a Death Note, I'd kill school. Or at least, I'd kill the standards by which my marks are being cast into oblivion. And homework too.
PS. I may share with the greater community if I find better scans, but cripes, Ryuichi's hair is HOT in their Mints Vol. 5(?) photoshoot. And I want a necklace like his. The boy is a queen princess God and he knows it, I swear.