cripes.
do you ever get the feeling that you aren't supposed to have a certain feeling? like it's wrong or bad to have that feeling? I've been feeling that lately.
and there's no way it could come to any good.
or maybe there is. my head's a mess.
one more paper, 15 pages due a week from today. I am proud that i have gotten this much done but still, 15--that's a LOT of pages, plus 10 pages of visual material. and references. i am just so tired from all that's happened and all of the school work.
...and the way he talks to me now. he talks to me like a stranger now. like a stranger he never loved. and that hurts more than i can say.
but i have my dearest friends and my mom. so things will be ok. i hope.
and there's no way it could come to any good.
or maybe there is. my head's a mess.
one more paper, 15 pages due a week from today. I am proud that i have gotten this much done but still, 15--that's a LOT of pages, plus 10 pages of visual material. and references. i am just so tired from all that's happened and all of the school work.
...and the way he talks to me now. he talks to me like a stranger now. like a stranger he never loved. and that hurts more than i can say.
but i have my dearest friends and my mom. so things will be ok. i hope.