meh
so an update is long overdo. no one reads this anymore but that almost makes it better.. that way i dont have to worry about what i write. this summer was rly shitty at first but its turning around. im in my classes and they arent that bad, i have an amazing job (kind of boring hence why im updating lj from the office). friends are good for the time being but anyone who knows my life knows that we all dont stay happy for long. my guy situation sucks. i love kyle but he doesnt want to be with me in a relationship however we spend every minute of everyday together or talking to each other and that makes me feel like i am tied down to him. i'm sort of mad at myself though because no one is forcing me to be this way but myself. i do have a crush on a new boy.. crushes are fun except theres no way i could ever get this one. ask me if u want to know who im talking about. I'm in a blechy mood today because i realized how much of this summer i wasted. the first 8 weeks of summer i did nothing but sit on my butt in orlando. i shouldve been going on roadtrips, or visiting family, or getting a job, or even taking classes...because now i dont have that option. after summer b is done i have spirit week and recruitment which im excited for and then after that starts classes. However, i know that this year will be amazing.. winter break i am planning on going to Israel and spring break on a cruise! hopefully that'll all work out. on a shorter-term level.. im excited to see Pirates tonight! It'll be a fun wifey night since we havent had one of those in a while. I'm in such a weird state because I am happy with everything going on in my life right now to an extent yet I am so incredibly bored with it all. I guess it's cliche' but I just want someone to walk in and sweep me off my feet. The likelihood of that happening.. slim to none. way to be positive, i know. anyways.. enough rambling. i'll be updating this a lot more often from now on since all i do all day at work is sit on a computer and entertain myself and occassionally answering a phone, "Good afternoon. Saab Training. How may I direct your call?" and then transfer them. what a life! x0x