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have u ever wondered what it is like to truly be so devastated that you cant do anything but cry. well i officially know how it feels. i've been moping aroun orlando crying my eyes out for two days now. kyle broke up with me.. well it was mutual at first and then right after i realized that i cant be without him and he wont be with me. so therefore, he is the one who wants out of the relationship. our 6 month anniversary was supposed to be tomorrow. i cant eat, i cant sleep, i dont know what to do with myself. i have never been more heartbroken in my life. and it kills me that he doesnt want to be with me anymore. on top of that i dont have my family to turn o nor is my best friend available to me to be with. there is nothing more that i want then to go home. but i dont have anyone there either. so now i'm going to do the only thing i know to do. i'm going to lock myself in my room and let myself disappear sobbing into my pillows until i pass out. i dont want to see anyone this weekend. i dont have the faith in people anymore. no one is to be trusted with your heart. all they can do with it is break it. and mine is officially shattered. with that i say goodbye for a few days.. or until he takes me back. because that is the only time i will truly be happy again.