STUPID MUMS ARE ALL ALIKE !
'Yes, I'm committing suicide and I've my reasons. Delete this email immediately if you're not interested or do not care about me at all.'
He then went on to say that he had had enough of his 'miserable life', having lived most of it 'in sorrow and suffering'.
'I live in a not normal family. My mother likes to control everything in my life (and also my brother and father),' he wrote.
'But even now, she still treats me as a child and somehow that irritates me.'
The writer described his father as a 'very kind person' who never complained or blamed others although their financial situation was not good.
'But too bad my mother often pressurises him, which often causes quarrel between them,' he wrote.
'Do you know how it feels to watch your own family shouting at each other almost every day when you were still a child?'
The writer said that his 'unstable emotion' could have been formed because of this.
He also had this to say about his brother: 'Sometimes he's reliable, but sometimes he's also very unreliable, especially if he got something to do for himself.'
The writer then went on about his childhood, which he described as 'a bad time'.
He said that when he was young, he cried a lot because of his family, friends and teachers.
But after the age of 16, he became 'strong and cold'.
'I never shed tears anymore, to any pitiful situation or event,' he said.
'Maybe this is because I just don't have anymore tears for me to shed for other people. I even doubt I will cry if my mom or dad suddenly passes away.'
The writer said that his life became much more 'difficult and complicated' after he entered university.
He said: 'I have tried to struggle but it seems that my mental is not strong enough to continue...'
The writer ended the note by saying: 'What have I done in my life? Basically nothing but repetition.'
The writer did not sign off on the document.
No e-mail
Senior Staff Sgt Ng told the court that he could not determine if the text file was written as an e-mail.
He had checked the e-mail folder in Mr Widjaja's laptop and could not find it in the 'sent' or 'draft' folders.
Senior Staff Sgt Ng also said that the file had not been changed since it was created.
Mr Widjaja, an Indonesian, has a brother, William, 24, who works as an IT consultant.
His parents and brother, who had been attending the inquiry faithfully since it began last month, were not in court yesterday.
His father, who works in a trading firm, had to return to Jakarta on Thursday because of work commitments. His brother had to attend a meeting and could not take leave from work to come this time.
His mother, a housewife, felt uneasy about remaining here without them and chose to fly off with her husband.
The inquiry continues next Wednesday.
IN THE FILE...
MOTHER
'My mother likes to control everything in my life.'
FATHER
'A very kind person... too bad my mother often pressurises him.'
BROTHER
'Sometimes he's reliable, but sometimes he's also very unreliable.'