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I just don't know what to do..i've really been thinkin alot about everything..i mean really thinkin..one of the things on my mind is what if i don't get the Florida Highway Patrol job? i know that if i don't get it then i'm gonna go back to connecticut..that's not the problem..i've figured that part out..but what about jenn and i..if i go back there i'm not gonna be able to support the both of us..i'll just about be able to support myself..i'm gonna go back there cuz i know i have two jobs there when i go back..i mean the CG really helps with all this when ur enlisted..i settled myself when i got in the CG and now i have to resettle myself when i get out and it will take awhile..if i go back to connecticut i'm defintiley goin to goto paramedic school which is like 4 days a week all day for like a year and then i have to study in my off time and then work a fulltime job..i'm not gonna have any time for jenn and i know there will be no way that i'll be able to afford a place to live right away..i hate to say it but i'll prolly have to move back in with my parents for alil while till i get outta school..so where does that leave jenn and i? i just don't know..but i do know that its prolly gonna end up to where nobody is happy and some people will hate me..i guess that's life..so what do i do now? how do i cushion it all? or can it even be cushioned so it doesn't drop like a rock? this is my dilema..............