Cross-posting, plussed!
Cross-posted from LoT
Mini-update:
Things are going much better now, and J's looking pretty good. Just got back from the hospital and found out they're going to be going in with a camera to check out and/or fix some stuff. He's put on 13 pounds since he was admitted! Of course, it's all from the fluids they've been pumping him with, but he's feeling so much better.
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The painkiller that was 'ineffective' was Dilaudid, which they gave to him after the morphine didn't work. Well, as I just learned Dilaudid is 10X stronger than morphine. Wowza! Anyhow, he seems to need much less of it, and he's doing very well - or at least better than before. Color back in his face, and all. To me, that says a lot, especially considering he hasn't really slept since he got there. I suspect tonight will be much better.
On the upside of this whole thing is his willingness to follow this through. There's been a possibility that it may be Crohn's, which he's hoping it isn't, since he's hoping to be able to go for some surgery on his intestines. If it's Crohn's, he's stuck with this. I've always had the feeling that, hey, finding out now or later doesn't change what it is - but knowing could go a long way. I can't tell if his reluctance to go is his optimism and my realism or even pessimism, or maybe it's the other way around. I guess it's a different way of looking at things, and who am I to judge what is right and wrong to feel about a body?
I'm just hoping this is a change for the better. It's time to live life, and not hold out for hope, when reality presents a far more compelling case for knowing what can and cannot be done.
Mini-update:
Things are going much better now, and J's looking pretty good. Just got back from the hospital and found out they're going to be going in with a camera to check out and/or fix some stuff. He's put on 13 pounds since he was admitted! Of course, it's all from the fluids they've been pumping him with, but he's feeling so much better.
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The painkiller that was 'ineffective' was Dilaudid, which they gave to him after the morphine didn't work. Well, as I just learned Dilaudid is 10X stronger than morphine. Wowza! Anyhow, he seems to need much less of it, and he's doing very well - or at least better than before. Color back in his face, and all. To me, that says a lot, especially considering he hasn't really slept since he got there. I suspect tonight will be much better.
On the upside of this whole thing is his willingness to follow this through. There's been a possibility that it may be Crohn's, which he's hoping it isn't, since he's hoping to be able to go for some surgery on his intestines. If it's Crohn's, he's stuck with this. I've always had the feeling that, hey, finding out now or later doesn't change what it is - but knowing could go a long way. I can't tell if his reluctance to go is his optimism and my realism or even pessimism, or maybe it's the other way around. I guess it's a different way of looking at things, and who am I to judge what is right and wrong to feel about a body?
I'm just hoping this is a change for the better. It's time to live life, and not hold out for hope, when reality presents a far more compelling case for knowing what can and cannot be done.