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i dont pretend to understand ppl for the most part they give me headaches men women they are all the same tome because all ppl are confusing as all bloody fuck who do they think of first themselves or those they care about what words do i use to greet them to welcome them into my life like i want too so much why do they all seem to look at me funny or talk to me funny the more i talk to me am i so unappealing physically and personally that i am the bane of all people how many times in a day do i sit and worry about what others think and how many times do i sit and think about how to act around people because i cant act naturally because that scares people because people look and speak to me like i have some disease like i have a flaw you cant see at first until you turn it into the light is my purpose flawed is there something wrong with me or am i just over reacting?

ahh purge. i feel better

nothing new under my sun other than hanging with some of my old friends and that makes me happy :D but then when i try to make new friends or worse try to chat up a girl i get the weirdest reactions. i dont quite get it. i know that before i had some absolutely wretched social skills and no tact lol. i told one girl in AIT that i liked the way her hair went from her dark roots went straight to blonde. hehehe that was a look that could've killed.

dragon ball has made my day hikaru-no-go however has made my month or so. i dont know why but the manga has made me so happy to read it. smiles abound. makes me want to play go but that is hard to find others to play but slowly one by one i will find converts.