three plus one

[bluink]

Break it
let the hammer fly
make pieces from another day
let all the shards ot light tinkle in the grass
twinkling stars and flowing blood
another moment lived and lost
shaken free from matted, greasy hair
break it all again because it is there

they're all asleep
I never inderstood thier dreams
the gap just grew over time
dog twitching at my feet, cats purring contentedly
cartoons play quietly on the tube
its midnight again and the snores and the purrs
the soft soft breathing of my nieces and brothers
make and unexpected symphony
I wonder what they see
in thier minds and dreamscapes
so far from me

I've been walking for an hour
my knuckles ache from clenching in the cold
sweaty open palms steaming
the anger is still not cooled
my ears hurt from the crunching, squeaking snow
snow is falling faster, thicker as i stand and catch my breath
for the first time i can feel something besides rage
the dull pain of going numb
a sharp twist in my knee
a burning chill on my face
A deep breath and I open my hands
in the orange pool of light and watch smoke rise
ice is forming on my cheeks
I don't want to remember why I am walking
But I do
So I start moving again

dry earth expecting
a blacktop grill for bare feet
anticipation
scorched blue skies burn dusty lawns
dying plants reach for the clouds
steam then a river as the hydrant breaks
sloppy granma kiss of relief