arrrggggh.

Sep 08, 2009 07:51

so this weekend for labor day, me, DH, and three of our close friends decided to go camping. got there sat am, and planned on leaving monday afternoon (today). Saturday was fine, sunday went by fine, until right after dinner. asked hubby to walk me to the camp bathroom, stood up, and GUSHED into my pants. i thought i peed at first, and then realized i definitely did not. got freaked out and hurried to the bathroom with him. he came in the stall with me, and we both started crying when i pulled my pants down and they were completely soaked with blood.

let me just say, we were in upstate new york at this time. in the middle of nowhere. no cell service for miles. we drive a half hour to the closest hospital, and rush into the ER. i explain to the lady at the window that i'm bleeding severely, and think i am miscarrying at 13 weeks pregnant. she says okay and walks away. five minutes later, we are still standing there and i start bleeding again, all over the floor. that gets her attention a little better and we are taken to a room. our friends followed us in their car and were about twenty min behind us. the blood was still there when they got there. nice.

so in the room, they fill out all my info, and then start trying to get an IV in me. i hate needles, and am upset, and ask what i need it for. i'm not dehydrated, and i havent lost enough blood to need blood, and i just want someone to tell me if i lost my baby or not. they tell me i need the IV in case. so she tries twice, and misses both times. the second time, she hit a nerve and i could no longer feel my finger. i told her to stop, i want them to focus on getting me an exam so i can stop freaking out. they bring someone else in to do the IV, and she gets it after fishing around in there for awhile. she takes some blood tubes and then hooks me up to saline.

we sit. and wait. and wait. and wait. for two hours. finally, i get a pelvic exam. there is a little blood left in there, but my cervix is closed. i have passed no tissue or clots at this point. he says they arent going to do and u/s, coz even if they found the baby and it was alive, they dont know if its going to stay that way. (way to ease my mind?) i finally call MY doctor, and get the on call doctor. (this is 3am btw) and he tells me to call tuesday and get an appt, and try to at least get them to listen with doppler. i ask the ER doctor to do this, he rolls his eyes at me and gets someone to come in. she's moving around the doppler, finds MY heartbeat, and goes heyyyy i think thats it! i told her it wasnt, and made her keep looking. we did eventually find it, and it was 157. another good sign.

i continue to spot, and wait another hour to get released. they tell me they cant even say if i am losing the baby or not. they are just going to make sure i'm medically safe, and then let me go. i'll find out about the baby if i either pass the tissue, or dont. they tell me MY obgyn is the only one who will really know whats going on. they are really really competent if you cant tell. ha.

finally, i think oh yeah, i'm RH negative, dont i need rhogam? so i ask. they go ohhhhh yeah i guess you do! we'll have the lab make it up for you. we wait another hour and a half, and finally i hear the lady outside our door saying "yeah, i didnt know i had to go GET it, i thought they'd bring it up! it was ready and hour ago!" and laughing before she comes in. as she is getting the needle ready, she goes "dont be nervous, i've never done this before though" and then gives me the shot. did i mention i'm afraid of needles? yeah. so i get the shot, get discharged, and still spotting a little, and have NO FUCKING CLUE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY BABY.

so now i'm home, still no cramping or pain and still have not passed any tissue. the bleeding seems to have stopped. i am hopeful, but not too hopeful. i JUST saw my baby a week ago on the 31st, hopping around with a steady hb. we just told people wednesday. not even a week ago yet. i am calling my doctor in the am, and hope he will get me in for an u/s, or something that will tell me what is going on. i'm scared and tired and upset.

my husband is perfect, and i love him more than life itself. he was so protective and loving the whole time. wish us luck, i hope i know more tomorrow.

also, i love you paula ian and colton, and i hope i didnt ruin your weekend. i was having alot of fun until this!
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