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So heres to another waste of time. I thought you cared but i was wrong again. I guess I should have stopped myself from loving you a long time ago but I really thought you'd come around. Well I was wrong what else is new. It doesnt really matter anymore though because I was getting used to being alone and I think maybe its best. I really did try more than I have ever tried before and maybe that was the problem who knows. What we had was better than I could ever imagine and I'll never forget it but I guess its just time to move on because this is just to stressful for me and your not helping me your hurting me and I really dont care if its intentional or not it just needs to end so im ending it. You clearly have many of your own issues to work through and im not going to be your punching bag anymore. If you still love him then go back go back to him and see if he treats you the same see if he'll do the things I did!!! Go back to him since you talk to him everyday anyways, go back to him cuz i know you still care!! I'm sick of the head games and I'm sick of hiding our relationship from everyone including our mutual friends and your family thats just fucking rediculous and the only reason i can think of for you to do that is because your either still involved with someone or your just afraid to commit to me. either way its to bad I cant wait any longer. I need all of you not just part. I want to hold your hand when we're together and I want to kiss you when i come home from work. Im not going hide in your room or go to the kitchen every time you want to show affection thats fucking stupid and Im done. If you really care about me if you really do feel the way I think you do then you'll deal with these issues and you'll tell rob and pat and tom and your sister and Fargo and ashley and who ever the fuck else has to know the truth. other wise im finished living this lie because its eating at me in a time where I have enough on my fucking plate and its just not fair to me any more. I did something with you that I thought I would never do agian and that was give you my heart but I guess it just wasnt worth having!