Well now, you're laughing out loud at just the thought of being alive...
I've come to the conclusion that I have no idea where I'm going to college and won't know until after spring break, since that's when I'll visit Irvine and probably Santa Barbara.
In the end it's going to be my decision alone, no one else's... But right now I'm just really... confused, I guess... I know Saint Mary's is expensive, but in the long run I think my parents would prefer me to be nearby, which really wouldn't be a bad thing: I could come home on weekends and eat real food and not have an emotional breakdown when I part with my family. But I just don't know what Saint Mary's has to offer me that the UC's can't give me more of. Everyone's talking about "the college experience." Well, basically I have to decide if I want a quiet, peaceful, experience by playing it safe and going to Saint Mary's, or if I want to break away on my own for the first time in my life and go down to Southern California to a big school in a new and totally different environment. Besides, Irvine is harder to get into than Saint Mary's, and it has way more resources than Saint Mary's, and it's not nearly as secluded. I just don't know anymore. I'm still leaning toward Irvine, but I can't be sure right now, which is driving me nuts. I can't be sure until I see for myself. My parents would prefer I'm close to home, and I would too to be honest. But... we all have to make sacrifices, don't we? If I do go to Southern California, it'll be hard emotionally, but it could be worth it. But then I think about my major, English (creative writing focus): would it be better to go to a liberal arts college where they focus on, well... liberal arts and have the sort of courses I'd take for my major... or a research university far from home that also has a creative writing focus and more than likely more course choices? Augh... everything that has to do with college is far too complicated to think about all at once...
I think I've rambled on long enough... I need to go finish my homework.
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In the end it's going to be my decision alone, no one else's... But right now I'm just really... confused, I guess... I know Saint Mary's is expensive, but in the long run I think my parents would prefer me to be nearby, which really wouldn't be a bad thing: I could come home on weekends and eat real food and not have an emotional breakdown when I part with my family. But I just don't know what Saint Mary's has to offer me that the UC's can't give me more of. Everyone's talking about "the college experience." Well, basically I have to decide if I want a quiet, peaceful, experience by playing it safe and going to Saint Mary's, or if I want to break away on my own for the first time in my life and go down to Southern California to a big school in a new and totally different environment. Besides, Irvine is harder to get into than Saint Mary's, and it has way more resources than Saint Mary's, and it's not nearly as secluded. I just don't know anymore. I'm still leaning toward Irvine, but I can't be sure right now, which is driving me nuts. I can't be sure until I see for myself. My parents would prefer I'm close to home, and I would too to be honest. But... we all have to make sacrifices, don't we? If I do go to Southern California, it'll be hard emotionally, but it could be worth it. But then I think about my major, English (creative writing focus): would it be better to go to a liberal arts college where they focus on, well... liberal arts and have the sort of courses I'd take for my major... or a research university far from home that also has a creative writing focus and more than likely more course choices? Augh... everything that has to do with college is far too complicated to think about all at once...
I think I've rambled on long enough... I need to go finish my homework.
<3 *~*Lyss*~* <3