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Have you ever been so tired that you couldn't sleep? How bout so upset that you cant think? Yeah, that's how I am right now.
Yeah, I really havent been myself for awhile now. I just don't really know how to describe it though. Let's just say that I've had a lot of thoughts running through my mind and none of them have or will come true for me. It really upsets me because of that. I just don't know what to think anymore because it's all so confusing. Everything that I thought could happen didnt really happen. Sure, I guess I could say that it's not as bad as I thought it would be, but still, it's not as good as I want it to be. I really suck at putting this into words. I just don't like who I am right now, I guess you could say. It's just that I really don't like this environment. I mean, the classes are fine, the music building is awesome, but it's just doesn't have the kinda vibe as I used to be around. Maybe I haven't moved on yet from high school? I don't know. But everything keeps piling up and at some point, something's gotta crumble. Not to mention the fact that me and becky havent talked since we broke up. fuck. I dont' know anymore. I'm done for now. I'm trying to work this out, but we'll just have to see what happens. So, at least for now, I'll say that I'll see you later. Although, I might not be in the best of moods the next time you see me. Well, that's it.
Yeah, I really havent been myself for awhile now. I just don't really know how to describe it though. Let's just say that I've had a lot of thoughts running through my mind and none of them have or will come true for me. It really upsets me because of that. I just don't know what to think anymore because it's all so confusing. Everything that I thought could happen didnt really happen. Sure, I guess I could say that it's not as bad as I thought it would be, but still, it's not as good as I want it to be. I really suck at putting this into words. I just don't like who I am right now, I guess you could say. It's just that I really don't like this environment. I mean, the classes are fine, the music building is awesome, but it's just doesn't have the kinda vibe as I used to be around. Maybe I haven't moved on yet from high school? I don't know. But everything keeps piling up and at some point, something's gotta crumble. Not to mention the fact that me and becky havent talked since we broke up. fuck. I dont' know anymore. I'm done for now. I'm trying to work this out, but we'll just have to see what happens. So, at least for now, I'll say that I'll see you later. Although, I might not be in the best of moods the next time you see me. Well, that's it.