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So heres the thing. These last 43 days of school are pretty much killing me. I hate it here so much that all I want to do is sleep to keep myself from crying when im awake. The weeks are lonely and the weekends lonelier. Ive come to realize something through all this though. Ive realized that I took everything I had last year, my friends, my life, my home, and expecially my friends for granted. I think about all the amazing times I had last year and all the fun I had with my favorite people in the world and I realize I can never get those moments back and it just saddens me even more. I miss everyone so much, more than anyone could ever imagine. All I can think about is how much I want to go home, how I want it to be summer, and especially, how I want to be at UT next year. I know i put myself in this situation, the whole CAP thing and I know im here for a purpose but sometimes I wonder if it was all worth it and deep down I know it will be but its sooooooo hard. It just sucks when you put yourself into a situation and then cant pull yourself out of it without the risk of losing something very important. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Please Save Me!!!!!!