Confused as all hell...
This great day has turned out to be not so great. I am just still so stressed and things just went all wrong. Just being home right now...I can't do it. I look for someone to lean on, to talk to, to hug, but I get told that I am "pushing me". I am just looking for someone...It hurts so bad.
I don't mean to be overwhelmed, and I try not to be, but with all the big decisions lately that I have had to make, and the ones that I still have to make, worrying about mistakes and all, I am starting to think that I have made a few. Things are just so hard right now, and I know that they will get better, I do. I know I am not going to be like this forever, but I am like this now. Mixed messages. I don't know what to do. I try to keep my chin up, and look to what I need to do right now and not waiver from that, but it's just so hard. I know I am not alone, and that helps me so much. Poor Katushka. She heard all this already. I know that right now what is sending me over the edge is not big things, but they are what is tipping the scale right now. But my resolve is strong, and I will make what decisions I need to. With the assistance of some alcohol. Atleast, tonight that sounds like an excellent idea.
OK well enough of the pity party. I am in comfy PJ's right now, and I am going to enjoy it, damn it!
I don't mean to be overwhelmed, and I try not to be, but with all the big decisions lately that I have had to make, and the ones that I still have to make, worrying about mistakes and all, I am starting to think that I have made a few. Things are just so hard right now, and I know that they will get better, I do. I know I am not going to be like this forever, but I am like this now. Mixed messages. I don't know what to do. I try to keep my chin up, and look to what I need to do right now and not waiver from that, but it's just so hard. I know I am not alone, and that helps me so much. Poor Katushka. She heard all this already. I know that right now what is sending me over the edge is not big things, but they are what is tipping the scale right now. But my resolve is strong, and I will make what decisions I need to. With the assistance of some alcohol. Atleast, tonight that sounds like an excellent idea.
OK well enough of the pity party. I am in comfy PJ's right now, and I am going to enjoy it, damn it!