New Apartment
Sitting in my first apartment and watching bridget jones's diary is quite inspiring when you think about it. Bridget has her ups and downs and ends on an up. Which reminds me, I need to get some food
seltzer water
angel hair pasta
lettuce
veggies
fruit
Sometimes I envy anorexics. I know that is horribly wrong in so many ways, but I feel like if I was like that I would stop when I was thinner, but it's a disease of the mind, they never think they are thin enough. What is wrong with me? I am so addicted to food. I am the heaviest I've been in my whole life. I work out and eat healthy and so heavy still. None of my summer clothes fit, except for those with elastic in the waist band... Fail. And MArk says he loves me just as I am, just like Darcy in Bridget jones, but i want to love me just the way I am. But I can't. I want to love a healthier me, a better in shape me that makes friends and goes outside and has fun with people I know.
Parents are coming soon, this coming Sat. One week and I will have a bed and furniture and my life will begin to get in order. And hopefully we will have a couch by then. And maybe I will have more hours of work or get the front desk job at that hotel.
The fight scene between hugh grant and Darcy is possibly the best scene of all time. hahahah. Love movies for making me feel better. Books are right up there too. Did I mention I got my burlington library card on which I can rent up to 25 books and 3 movies! Pretty sweet and sad that that's my highlight of the week. What a nerd I am.
Did you ever notice how musical and almost beautiful broken glass sounds?
seltzer water
angel hair pasta
lettuce
veggies
fruit
Sometimes I envy anorexics. I know that is horribly wrong in so many ways, but I feel like if I was like that I would stop when I was thinner, but it's a disease of the mind, they never think they are thin enough. What is wrong with me? I am so addicted to food. I am the heaviest I've been in my whole life. I work out and eat healthy and so heavy still. None of my summer clothes fit, except for those with elastic in the waist band... Fail. And MArk says he loves me just as I am, just like Darcy in Bridget jones, but i want to love me just the way I am. But I can't. I want to love a healthier me, a better in shape me that makes friends and goes outside and has fun with people I know.
Parents are coming soon, this coming Sat. One week and I will have a bed and furniture and my life will begin to get in order. And hopefully we will have a couch by then. And maybe I will have more hours of work or get the front desk job at that hotel.
The fight scene between hugh grant and Darcy is possibly the best scene of all time. hahahah. Love movies for making me feel better. Books are right up there too. Did I mention I got my burlington library card on which I can rent up to 25 books and 3 movies! Pretty sweet and sad that that's my highlight of the week. What a nerd I am.
Did you ever notice how musical and almost beautiful broken glass sounds?