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Less than 8 months until I graduate. And it's a real scary thing to realize. This time next year I will either be in Charleston or Cinncinati and finalizing flight arrangements to come home or driving arrangements. I will be anticipating the slight event that I will be able to see my best friend while I'm home because she goes away for Thanksgiving.
Ay dios mio. I'm scared.
I'm scared my mom will be lost without me. Scratch that. I'm scared of being lost without my mom and KP. Even more recently since I got accepted the question has aroused "What are you two going to do without each other?" Lord if I know. I go through a bad case of seperation anxiety, but I mean what am I going to do in the future? When you grow up you always grow apart. Sometimes its not a far distance, and sometimes you're lucky to see each other every 5 years. I don't want life to be like that. I watched Beverly Hills 90210 the other day and Brandon said "Just because we're graduating, doesn't mean we're graduating from each other." Which is the honest truth. Sometimes it's just so hard. I really want to go to Charleston because it has always been my DREAM to live in the south. It's just so unappealing being down there alone, coming home for Thanksgiving, Christmas, Spring Break, and Summer Break. But I don't want to be one of those kids that get to come home for a weekend when they want and I don't want my mom to be able to come down just because.
I want to be happy. I want to do what makes me happy. But I don't know what I'm going to do without the people I love by my side all the time.
Ay dios mio. I'm scared.
I'm scared my mom will be lost without me. Scratch that. I'm scared of being lost without my mom and KP. Even more recently since I got accepted the question has aroused "What are you two going to do without each other?" Lord if I know. I go through a bad case of seperation anxiety, but I mean what am I going to do in the future? When you grow up you always grow apart. Sometimes its not a far distance, and sometimes you're lucky to see each other every 5 years. I don't want life to be like that. I watched Beverly Hills 90210 the other day and Brandon said "Just because we're graduating, doesn't mean we're graduating from each other." Which is the honest truth. Sometimes it's just so hard. I really want to go to Charleston because it has always been my DREAM to live in the south. It's just so unappealing being down there alone, coming home for Thanksgiving, Christmas, Spring Break, and Summer Break. But I don't want to be one of those kids that get to come home for a weekend when they want and I don't want my mom to be able to come down just because.
I want to be happy. I want to do what makes me happy. But I don't know what I'm going to do without the people I love by my side all the time.