you don't want to upset alison. you best do what she says...
Hello again. as you may have noticed (and by you i mean Rico, and apparently Alison) i haven't written in my livejournal in six months. isn't this how all my entries start? by me stating that i have nothing to write about, hence the lack of reading material for my two readers? you would think i would mix it up a bit. but alas, i am really not doing anything noteworthy.
In December i lost my job. It pretty much crushed my confidence at being good at anything. I am completely afraid that i will fail at any job now because of mistakes. However, to be fair to myself, she was totally unorganized, and gave very little direction. it may have been my subconscience making mistakes to get me out of an environment that offered little reward, no chance for advancement, and made me unhappy 9 times out of 10. If you know me at all you know that i am a perfectionist to the core. maybe not as hard core as the Zigs, but for sure i hate making mistakes. it was unlike me to present a client with pieces that were full of spelling and spacing errors, or write incorrect addresses on ads. that is not who i am and i was very ashamed. but at the same time i felt that someone with such bad business etiquete and awful organization skills, as well as feeling like she had NO idea what she was doing most of the time, should not succeed in business. that is the vindictive part of me i suppose. It's not my favorite part, but God it feels good sometimes.
Since then i have been spreading my resume over the Treasure Valley. I interviewed for an Internship at Peppershock Media in Nampa. this would be a non-paying position but i would definitely learn a lot and it could turn into a paying position. I have an interview for a PR firm that deals with the Public Transportation system called RBCI on the 5th, which I am a little worried about because i feel a little under-qualified. hopefully there will be training involved and i am not just thrown to the wolves. and there are other possibilities floating around that may lead somewhere. all in all things are looking up.
Rico and I are looking for a house. it makes me feel very grown up to say it. i am excited to start that new life.
I will end this entry with something that has been making its way around facebook. 25 facts about me.
1. I am competitive to the extreme. Even when it really isn't a competition, i still want to win, and will do my everything to make sure that happens. this includes who can ring up the most people at the bookstore. it's like racing someone who doesn't know they are in the race.
2. I hate being naked. even by myself... (TMI?)
3. I secretly yearn to sing kareoke, and want everyone to think i am great. But then i get too scared.
4. funny people impress me the most. You can be really intelligent/strong/great at what you do, but if you can't make me laugh, I am not that impressed.
5. i am proud of being Italian and Catholic even though i don't practice either. (although i don't think you can practice being an Italian... but you get the point).
6. I am addicted to food. Eating is one of the high points in my day, and i think about when i will get to eat next.
7. taking a baby asprin everyday for the rest of my life makes me feel like an old woman.
8. I drink too little liquid of any kind. i really need to work on that.
9. I cry at the drop of a hat. and i hate it.
10. I will order almost anything if it has mushrooms in it.
11. I really hate small talk.
12. My coping mechanism for any kind of tension is to make a joke.
13. I feel like i am a good dancer, until i see myself dancing.
14. Chocolate is my favorite. even better if it is melted.
15. I love cooking. I love it more when i make it up myself.
16. I'm thinking that it is going to be really hard to think of 9 more things.
17. I would much prefer to be the passenger than the driver.
18. I miss being an athlete. i haven't done anything really athletic in awhile.
19. i have had a big craving for sushi lately.
20. my drive to be successful, and my current state are causing some internal unrest.
ok... so i couldn't make it to 25. but 20 is good.
hope you enjoyed it, please leave a comment. thanks!
In December i lost my job. It pretty much crushed my confidence at being good at anything. I am completely afraid that i will fail at any job now because of mistakes. However, to be fair to myself, she was totally unorganized, and gave very little direction. it may have been my subconscience making mistakes to get me out of an environment that offered little reward, no chance for advancement, and made me unhappy 9 times out of 10. If you know me at all you know that i am a perfectionist to the core. maybe not as hard core as the Zigs, but for sure i hate making mistakes. it was unlike me to present a client with pieces that were full of spelling and spacing errors, or write incorrect addresses on ads. that is not who i am and i was very ashamed. but at the same time i felt that someone with such bad business etiquete and awful organization skills, as well as feeling like she had NO idea what she was doing most of the time, should not succeed in business. that is the vindictive part of me i suppose. It's not my favorite part, but God it feels good sometimes.
Since then i have been spreading my resume over the Treasure Valley. I interviewed for an Internship at Peppershock Media in Nampa. this would be a non-paying position but i would definitely learn a lot and it could turn into a paying position. I have an interview for a PR firm that deals with the Public Transportation system called RBCI on the 5th, which I am a little worried about because i feel a little under-qualified. hopefully there will be training involved and i am not just thrown to the wolves. and there are other possibilities floating around that may lead somewhere. all in all things are looking up.
Rico and I are looking for a house. it makes me feel very grown up to say it. i am excited to start that new life.
I will end this entry with something that has been making its way around facebook. 25 facts about me.
1. I am competitive to the extreme. Even when it really isn't a competition, i still want to win, and will do my everything to make sure that happens. this includes who can ring up the most people at the bookstore. it's like racing someone who doesn't know they are in the race.
2. I hate being naked. even by myself... (TMI?)
3. I secretly yearn to sing kareoke, and want everyone to think i am great. But then i get too scared.
4. funny people impress me the most. You can be really intelligent/strong/great at what you do, but if you can't make me laugh, I am not that impressed.
5. i am proud of being Italian and Catholic even though i don't practice either. (although i don't think you can practice being an Italian... but you get the point).
6. I am addicted to food. Eating is one of the high points in my day, and i think about when i will get to eat next.
7. taking a baby asprin everyday for the rest of my life makes me feel like an old woman.
8. I drink too little liquid of any kind. i really need to work on that.
9. I cry at the drop of a hat. and i hate it.
10. I will order almost anything if it has mushrooms in it.
11. I really hate small talk.
12. My coping mechanism for any kind of tension is to make a joke.
13. I feel like i am a good dancer, until i see myself dancing.
14. Chocolate is my favorite. even better if it is melted.
15. I love cooking. I love it more when i make it up myself.
16. I'm thinking that it is going to be really hard to think of 9 more things.
17. I would much prefer to be the passenger than the driver.
18. I miss being an athlete. i haven't done anything really athletic in awhile.
19. i have had a big craving for sushi lately.
20. my drive to be successful, and my current state are causing some internal unrest.
ok... so i couldn't make it to 25. but 20 is good.
hope you enjoyed it, please leave a comment. thanks!