Hrmmmm i miss mum
I kinda been thinking lately, I really want kids, BUT I'm just not sure whether I could handle them or whether I'm ready for them mentally.... I mean the Bi-Polar variation I have is a heriditory kind.... and I mean I would feel like such a bitch IF I ever had to make someone else (let alone my own kid - WHEN/IF it happens) have to go through the same things I've had to go through, some of it YES was life, but fuck.... 95% of it was just bullshit from people not knowing what to do, what to say and how the fuck to act around me (when I'm the same person, I'm just officially labelled).
Also, I miss my mum soooooo much :( she's been gone over 2 months already and I have no idea what to do. Usually if I had questions about my life, I'd ask my mum.... now she's gone I can't hear her voice and hear the advice. I have her pictures put up around the computer but it doesn't help that I just wanna see her again IN PERSON!! not in my dreams, not having her turn off street lights (like the same one every night I'm doing my night shifts),
I guess at the moment I'm just depressed, i just wanna see and talk to my mum.... it sounds so wrong when I know I can't. :'(
Also, I miss my mum soooooo much :( she's been gone over 2 months already and I have no idea what to do. Usually if I had questions about my life, I'd ask my mum.... now she's gone I can't hear her voice and hear the advice. I have her pictures put up around the computer but it doesn't help that I just wanna see her again IN PERSON!! not in my dreams, not having her turn off street lights (like the same one every night I'm doing my night shifts),
I guess at the moment I'm just depressed, i just wanna see and talk to my mum.... it sounds so wrong when I know I can't. :'(