spring cleaning....
So I have these issues. I always say I'll change 'em but I dont.
I lie. A lot. I tell little white lies, and major lies. I lie to my family, friends, strangers...I'm sure I've lied to you at some point. Why? B/c I'm either a jerk or a people pleaser. Chances are I've probably lied to avoid conflict, I was scared, or I just didn't care. I've hurt a lot of people in my life, i've stepped on a lot of hearts b/c I lie.
I have a lot of webbed lies. I can't keep them all straight so if I forget percise points of my "lie" I'd most likely get caught b/c my stories don't match up or don't make sense. It's not that I LOVE to lie, I just do it. Sometimes so people wont get angry, or they wont be sad. But then it just ends up being sucky b/c I have hurt that person, and even myself.
It doesn't get me anywhere. All it gets me is more angry people and trust issues. I don't even trust myself, so I don't blame anyone for not trusting me.
I lie so I don't have to continue talking about certain topics. I lie so I can do what I want b/c its what I want to do and nobody can tell me otherwise - Thats what I think, but I shouldn't think that way. I've even lied about people I love just so I could look better. So I could get attention and get cooed over b/c I don't want people to think I'm wrong. I don't want people to look at me and say "You're nuts". But I think i've proven that I am nuts if I just lie to make myself better and stomp on others.
Low self-esteem has played into this a bit. I lie so that people will give me sympthay so it will make me feel better about myself. I lie so I can look better than other people.
Yes, I go and see a therapist and I'm gonna make sure I dont live like this.
I lie. A lot. I tell little white lies, and major lies. I lie to my family, friends, strangers...I'm sure I've lied to you at some point. Why? B/c I'm either a jerk or a people pleaser. Chances are I've probably lied to avoid conflict, I was scared, or I just didn't care. I've hurt a lot of people in my life, i've stepped on a lot of hearts b/c I lie.
I have a lot of webbed lies. I can't keep them all straight so if I forget percise points of my "lie" I'd most likely get caught b/c my stories don't match up or don't make sense. It's not that I LOVE to lie, I just do it. Sometimes so people wont get angry, or they wont be sad. But then it just ends up being sucky b/c I have hurt that person, and even myself.
It doesn't get me anywhere. All it gets me is more angry people and trust issues. I don't even trust myself, so I don't blame anyone for not trusting me.
I lie so I don't have to continue talking about certain topics. I lie so I can do what I want b/c its what I want to do and nobody can tell me otherwise - Thats what I think, but I shouldn't think that way. I've even lied about people I love just so I could look better. So I could get attention and get cooed over b/c I don't want people to think I'm wrong. I don't want people to look at me and say "You're nuts". But I think i've proven that I am nuts if I just lie to make myself better and stomp on others.
Low self-esteem has played into this a bit. I lie so that people will give me sympthay so it will make me feel better about myself. I lie so I can look better than other people.
Yes, I go and see a therapist and I'm gonna make sure I dont live like this.