Its an irish story. Not an american one
Its been an interesting week. Alot has been going on in my head. Something has changed in me. I still have my own demons to face. But I really feel like I can move on from what was holding me back. Talking to my dad in illinois helped alot. Alot uncertainties are a lil more certain. He gave some helpful advice. Its been a lil wierd when I got back. Been in a funky mood. But I think thats just because I have been feeling lonely. I have to work on myself a lil. But I am not far from where I I use to be. When I was able to have great friendships and a great relationship and enjoyed the lil things that most people I think wouldn't think mattered. OR maybe they over look. I think its about time for me to start living the dream than trying to figure out its master plan. THese past 2 years I have just spent it thinking and trying to build myself back to a decent person. I guess I have always been a good person. Just didn't think I was. I find myself having cares that I haven't had in awhile. Maybe not all the same cares. BUt all the good ones.LOL...
Might be leaving this weekend. But I hope I don't. Kinda sick of traveling. I wrote some sheet music for a guy. He might want me to go to California for a day. So he gets an idea of what it should sound like. But thats if he can't decide how it should be played by himself. Ryanhood concert is this weekend. So it would suck to miss that. Have yet to see them in concert. I have been thinking about music alot lately. Gotta start doing my own music. I don't know how to explain it. But making music for other people is so much different than making my own music. And it is sometimes hard to focus. I have a variety of styles that I play. Blues, Jazz, Rock, Metal, Acoustic pop kinda. I have been playing around with the acoustic alot more because I have been thinking about singing. But I also think thats because I have yet to find a singer. Its hard. Especially if I want a band not just to fuck around but get serious enough to make a living. THere was jessika that I worked with for a lil. We created 5 songs. And pretty quick too. Not sure what really happened though. Just felt like things weren't working out. But she had a good voice. And her and her wife were fun to be around. I guess I am confused why I didn't stick with it. We came from different musical backgrounds. But that wasn't bad. She introduced me to music that I appreciate alot. I like the progressive music. I think one reason is because it has so many different styles in it. Plus I respect alot of the musicians who do progressive metal. Because they have such a huge musical background. And its just good music to me. I have been having such a writers block for lyrics and stuff. Plus sometimes I am not sure what good it will do me because its hard to write lyrics for someone and help them sing it. Because well I guess if its not from their heart they might not sing it from their heart. And thats what I am looking for. I remember when I would have long conversations with Mayer just so he would get an idea of what I was writting. Same thing when I worked with Tiffany and K. But they didn't really get it. Thats why I like it when the singer writes lyrics. I should just start creating riffs and rythyms to prepare for when I do find a singer. I have been looking for female singers. I tried working with Tiff again. She has an awesome voice. Great range. Not as strong as Amy Lee. But its awesome. And she is totally into metal. Loves great guitar licks. She loves Symphony X and Dream Theater, lemurs voice. She has good energy for the music. Just one thing is that she is a really bad drugie. And I don't want to be around that. And it just causes more problems along the road. But I have a ryhthym guitarist. I call him my brother Joe. We have been jaming atleast once a week. Its the only day he reall has off. But we have just been doing a bunch of cover songs. But its time to start working on our own material.
Well I will write more later.
Might be leaving this weekend. But I hope I don't. Kinda sick of traveling. I wrote some sheet music for a guy. He might want me to go to California for a day. So he gets an idea of what it should sound like. But thats if he can't decide how it should be played by himself. Ryanhood concert is this weekend. So it would suck to miss that. Have yet to see them in concert. I have been thinking about music alot lately. Gotta start doing my own music. I don't know how to explain it. But making music for other people is so much different than making my own music. And it is sometimes hard to focus. I have a variety of styles that I play. Blues, Jazz, Rock, Metal, Acoustic pop kinda. I have been playing around with the acoustic alot more because I have been thinking about singing. But I also think thats because I have yet to find a singer. Its hard. Especially if I want a band not just to fuck around but get serious enough to make a living. THere was jessika that I worked with for a lil. We created 5 songs. And pretty quick too. Not sure what really happened though. Just felt like things weren't working out. But she had a good voice. And her and her wife were fun to be around. I guess I am confused why I didn't stick with it. We came from different musical backgrounds. But that wasn't bad. She introduced me to music that I appreciate alot. I like the progressive music. I think one reason is because it has so many different styles in it. Plus I respect alot of the musicians who do progressive metal. Because they have such a huge musical background. And its just good music to me. I have been having such a writers block for lyrics and stuff. Plus sometimes I am not sure what good it will do me because its hard to write lyrics for someone and help them sing it. Because well I guess if its not from their heart they might not sing it from their heart. And thats what I am looking for. I remember when I would have long conversations with Mayer just so he would get an idea of what I was writting. Same thing when I worked with Tiffany and K. But they didn't really get it. Thats why I like it when the singer writes lyrics. I should just start creating riffs and rythyms to prepare for when I do find a singer. I have been looking for female singers. I tried working with Tiff again. She has an awesome voice. Great range. Not as strong as Amy Lee. But its awesome. And she is totally into metal. Loves great guitar licks. She loves Symphony X and Dream Theater, lemurs voice. She has good energy for the music. Just one thing is that she is a really bad drugie. And I don't want to be around that. And it just causes more problems along the road. But I have a ryhthym guitarist. I call him my brother Joe. We have been jaming atleast once a week. Its the only day he reall has off. But we have just been doing a bunch of cover songs. But its time to start working on our own material.
Well I will write more later.