confused

[blueupbear]

Sometimes I wish that I wasn't such an emotional person.
Then I could just let things ride and not let them
get to me. Ane and I just aren't attracted to each
other in a sexual way. This makes me sad because I love her
but it's just not fusing together. This is when I miss the attraction
I had with someone and I gave my heart and I got is crushed in a little
box with a note saying "Im happy that I got to be keep your
memory for a little longer"
She didn't get the job in Madison
because two people within the hospital applied at the
last minuet. Of course they get priorty over her since
she's not part of their system. This has made her very depresed
and she dosn't want to talk about it right now so it makes
the tention even worse.

The weekend was very nice. On Saturday the weather was just perfect
for an event. Almost fridged in the shade.
The flying rats-on-a-stick was the most fun Iv had at
a feast in a long time.

The fire was great! Who ever says kerioke dosn't belong at
a bardic circle is sure missing out. Bretney Spears look out!

Although I was well behaved for the event, some of my later
actions may have cost me a very good close friend. This makes
me very sad and disoranted. I want to talk about it
but I don't know if this person wants to or not. This is the
part that sucks so much.

I guess i will have to wait and see what happens next.