listening to moby
i skipped both of my classes today. i don't know why. i just didn't care enough to go. & last night i watched more tv than i should have and did less calc than i should have. i need to get away from routine, but i'm not even looking forward to going home. in a way, yes i do want to leave psu for a bit, yet i feel too tired to go home - to have to smile for the people there. it's not much different. there are less people to smile for there, but for each of those people it is much more important that i smile.
once, on a survey i rated myself '4' on a scale of 1-10 for happiness. i think i'm now a '5,' but it doesn't feel any better.