Love, I guess
Ok, crunch time.
I don't identify as anything, really, when it comes to the whole sexual/gender spectrum. Oh, there are terms that come close but none that really work.
And it bugs the hell out of me even as I suspect that this state of affairs is a relatively normal state of being.
We all try on labels and keep the ones that feel most true or that we want to be true.
And the reasons that we focus so much on romantic partnerships is that the world is geared to make a two person adult household the most workable solution.
Stop and look around if you don't believe me. I am quite sure that you will find many examples. Taxes, food packaging, basic living expenses.
It is also something that we are trained to want. A partner.
And, I must admit, the older I get the more that the idea of someone there for me (and me for them) holds greater and greater appeal.
But, while I am quite capable of finding the various physical forms of my fellow bipedal humaniods (hey, it is possible that there is intelligent life out there and with my luck being what it is I'll find a life partner from Alpha Centari...and I'm not talking Babylon 5 here) attractive, few, if any, hit the 'oh, yes, sex please' buttons
(That is, of course, assuming I have them. I'd like to think that I do and the wiring just isn't hooked up yet.)
So I label myself as mostly asexual, as functionally asexual, but not aromantic.
But there are very few people out there who would be willing to enter into a relationship without sex. And I find that it seems to be an expected thing. And I am old fashioned.
And my self worth is enough that I think I'm worth waiting for.
-sighs- maybe I just need to develop a correspondence romance.
I don't identify as anything, really, when it comes to the whole sexual/gender spectrum. Oh, there are terms that come close but none that really work.
And it bugs the hell out of me even as I suspect that this state of affairs is a relatively normal state of being.
We all try on labels and keep the ones that feel most true or that we want to be true.
And the reasons that we focus so much on romantic partnerships is that the world is geared to make a two person adult household the most workable solution.
Stop and look around if you don't believe me. I am quite sure that you will find many examples. Taxes, food packaging, basic living expenses.
It is also something that we are trained to want. A partner.
And, I must admit, the older I get the more that the idea of someone there for me (and me for them) holds greater and greater appeal.
But, while I am quite capable of finding the various physical forms of my fellow bipedal humaniods (hey, it is possible that there is intelligent life out there and with my luck being what it is I'll find a life partner from Alpha Centari...and I'm not talking Babylon 5 here) attractive, few, if any, hit the 'oh, yes, sex please' buttons
(That is, of course, assuming I have them. I'd like to think that I do and the wiring just isn't hooked up yet.)
So I label myself as mostly asexual, as functionally asexual, but not aromantic.
But there are very few people out there who would be willing to enter into a relationship without sex. And I find that it seems to be an expected thing. And I am old fashioned.
And my self worth is enough that I think I'm worth waiting for.
-sighs- maybe I just need to develop a correspondence romance.