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OHH MANN...
i cant do anything right!! NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY!! everyone and their moms are pissed off at me all the time, i cant make anyone happy, not even myself!! im sorry that i made this decision henry, but you have to understand where im coming from. I waited for you for a WHOLE YEAR!! and i got nothing out of it, all year i head stories about you, you were talking to different girls while "TALKING" to me too. I never wanted to believe any of that cause i never thought you would do something like that behind my back, but i guess anythings possible. it hurt so much to think that i was losing you for someone else, that feeling of your insides be ripped apart, OHH MANN that fucking sucks!! this year has not brought any happiness to me, this is the most ive never cried so much before in my life!! and it was all for you, but to you it meant nothing and to me YOU meant the world. i would think to myself, how am i gonna get by? you were my everything, your what i looked forward to everyday!! i would always tell you that i HATE HATE HATE school! and you kept me going!! just to see you made my day go by!! i couldnt wait for each period to end, just to see you!! you made me soo happy!! i didnt know that i could feel so much for a guy. ive fallen for you, and what do i do now?!? now that you have hurt me the way you did, a girl can only take so much, so i guess you can say that i had it all ready. dont get me wrong, we did have so many GRAET times together, and i hoped it would last forever, but i guess not. and you know how you said that i got tired of you?!? well what now?? you were tired of me?? im sorry that i couldnt give your everything that you wanted, but im not perfect, remember when we would say we werent perfect, but we were perfect for eachother?!? yea, i do!! and i always thought we were right!! i know that i have messed up before when it came to joaquin, but thats one guy, not two or three girls... i was in denial(if thats how you spell it) when i heard that you liked amanda. i didnt understand why you wouldnt tell me...shes my compitition and i cant compete with that!! like you said, it was worth it while it lasted!! i just want to thank you for giving me all these great memories and bad memories, you helped me out. without you i wouldnt be who i am now, you played a major role in my life and i want to thank you for that also...you never forget your first love, so i will NEVER forget you...im not saying this is it, but for now it is...just give it time and we'll see what happens..you know how they say,"no guy is worth your tears, and the one who is wont make you cry" well thats not ture, you were worth it, and you made me cry!! LOL ok well enough said, i could go on and on but i would never finish!! and i want you to know, that i LOVE you too!!
i cant do anything right!! NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY!! everyone and their moms are pissed off at me all the time, i cant make anyone happy, not even myself!! im sorry that i made this decision henry, but you have to understand where im coming from. I waited for you for a WHOLE YEAR!! and i got nothing out of it, all year i head stories about you, you were talking to different girls while "TALKING" to me too. I never wanted to believe any of that cause i never thought you would do something like that behind my back, but i guess anythings possible. it hurt so much to think that i was losing you for someone else, that feeling of your insides be ripped apart, OHH MANN that fucking sucks!! this year has not brought any happiness to me, this is the most ive never cried so much before in my life!! and it was all for you, but to you it meant nothing and to me YOU meant the world. i would think to myself, how am i gonna get by? you were my everything, your what i looked forward to everyday!! i would always tell you that i HATE HATE HATE school! and you kept me going!! just to see you made my day go by!! i couldnt wait for each period to end, just to see you!! you made me soo happy!! i didnt know that i could feel so much for a guy. ive fallen for you, and what do i do now?!? now that you have hurt me the way you did, a girl can only take so much, so i guess you can say that i had it all ready. dont get me wrong, we did have so many GRAET times together, and i hoped it would last forever, but i guess not. and you know how you said that i got tired of you?!? well what now?? you were tired of me?? im sorry that i couldnt give your everything that you wanted, but im not perfect, remember when we would say we werent perfect, but we were perfect for eachother?!? yea, i do!! and i always thought we were right!! i know that i have messed up before when it came to joaquin, but thats one guy, not two or three girls... i was in denial(if thats how you spell it) when i heard that you liked amanda. i didnt understand why you wouldnt tell me...shes my compitition and i cant compete with that!! like you said, it was worth it while it lasted!! i just want to thank you for giving me all these great memories and bad memories, you helped me out. without you i wouldnt be who i am now, you played a major role in my life and i want to thank you for that also...you never forget your first love, so i will NEVER forget you...im not saying this is it, but for now it is...just give it time and we'll see what happens..you know how they say,"no guy is worth your tears, and the one who is wont make you cry" well thats not ture, you were worth it, and you made me cry!! LOL ok well enough said, i could go on and on but i would never finish!! and i want you to know, that i LOVE you too!!