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[bluestetson]

Okay things aren't as bad as I thought.

They let me go home with a script for atavan, but I had to promise not to hurt myself. Also I was prescribed extreme sports, and that is not even a lie.

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[anemptyflight]

like rafting and shit? weird. is it to do with adrenalin release or something?

[bluestetson]

Yeah, the guy said I needed to even out my dopamine levels. I'm going to start roller derby soon,so that should help out some.

My knees and hips and shit are all shot to hell, so it's hard for me to be physically active enough to get the adrenaline up enough to help out.

[anemptyflight]

oh wow roller derby! That's amazing. I used to get shit assignments like write down my feelings using smiley faces..

[bluestetson]

Hah, I hate therapists like that. This guy was pretty funny, he told me to call the crisis line at the hospital when I get bored and fuck with those guys because he hates the people that run that.

He also said that I better not kill myself in the next few days because he'll probably lose his license for saying I was okay to go home and then he wouldn't be able to feed his kids. If I had gotten somebody who did the whole 'how does that make you feel?' thing, I probably would've needed to be committed. That shit makes me want to die more than my life ever could.

[anemptyflight]

he sounds awesome. I gave up on them, they're just all such tards. I wish someone told me to do roller derby or some shit.

[bluestetson]

Fuck it man, find a roller derby team and hook that shit up. I was going to join the team anyway, and I was supposed to go to practice yesterday, but I decided the hospital was a better idea at the time.

But yeah, for the most part, I don't think I'm going to go to a therapist anymore, I got myself some anti anxiety shit to take when I start freaking out, and that's all I really wanted. I know what my problems are, I just can't deal with them because I panic and freeze up and can't function at all.

[anemptyflight]

I don't think we have that in Australia..I should just go to the gym more and stop being a slack fatty

[bluestetson]

Maybe street hockey?

I dunno, something that you get to beat the shit out of people and get the shit beat out of you is a good idea if you need some extra adrenaline. Either that or something fast. Get into racing something or other, I bet it'll help.