You have social obligations now that can weigh heavily on you. It's not that you don't want to be with others; it's just that you don't know if you can live up to everyone else's expectations. Don't waste your precious energy on self-doubt. Do what is required and be ready to move on to better times ahead.
Damn, that's very much what has been going on in my life. These things have been spooky as of late regarding what comes up, but definitely ready for some forthcoming good times!