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Today at work is just irritating me. Karen (my boss) is out, and we are having more issues than normal, and some of them are ones I just don't have the authority or knowlege to resolve. Also, I am most likely going to have a bad day on Friday, or at least partially a bad day, because a mother and daughter are coming in for a tour and they were rude to Rachel when she explained to them we don't have the resources to have an advisor on staff to talk to prospective students (our advisor talks to current UNT students only). I don't know where these people get the idea into their heads that a public university has the funds to pay for recruiters (which is what an onsite, on call advisor for prospective students would be). All they get is me, the very humble and very knowlegeable student. Yes, I am a student. No, I am not a theatre student. But it is my job to know my stuff and be able to answer any questions about the department they might have. Also, I am tired of the mom/student duos that will come in and mama will do all the talking while the student stares at their feet and looks terrified.
Not much else to report. I didn't get as much done this weekend as I needed to; then again, I never do. Maybe next weekend I will get caught up on my graphic design stuff. I have to do collage and illustrations for the Kois project that caused me so much grief last semester; revisting these old pieces and, as such, revisiting the old agony they caused me in semesters past, makes me uncomfortable and miserable and wracked by anxiety, not something I am generally prone to. Plus, post review, I have almost completely lost the ability to see what is wrong or right with my ideas. I am still confident in my ability to conceptualize, but I cannot express my concept. I look at my typography and this it's all horrible, and have no idea how to make it better. I look at my marks and all their forms are horrible and poorly executed. My photographs suck and I do not have the resources to make them not such, since I am a mediocre photographer at best and do not have the time to find a professional photographer to volunteer time to shoot a few random and unrelated photographs (and I do not have the money or even desire to try and track down a student photographer, and they are probably at least as busy if not more so than I am anyway...I can shoot photos at least well enough to keep up with a mediocre photography student). Bah!
The boy took the day off today though so I will actually be able to spend an evening with him; his job requires mandatory overtime, and he's worked the past 8 days. Last weekend he was more or less available to hang out I was in Lubbock.
All I want to do right now is curl up and knit cute things and work on my NaNovel. I'm so badly behind, if I bust ass and write 2000 words or so a day I might get caught up and finish. But this is doubtful, I haven't written a word in 2 days and I most likely won't write any today.
Not much else to report. I didn't get as much done this weekend as I needed to; then again, I never do. Maybe next weekend I will get caught up on my graphic design stuff. I have to do collage and illustrations for the Kois project that caused me so much grief last semester; revisting these old pieces and, as such, revisiting the old agony they caused me in semesters past, makes me uncomfortable and miserable and wracked by anxiety, not something I am generally prone to. Plus, post review, I have almost completely lost the ability to see what is wrong or right with my ideas. I am still confident in my ability to conceptualize, but I cannot express my concept. I look at my typography and this it's all horrible, and have no idea how to make it better. I look at my marks and all their forms are horrible and poorly executed. My photographs suck and I do not have the resources to make them not such, since I am a mediocre photographer at best and do not have the time to find a professional photographer to volunteer time to shoot a few random and unrelated photographs (and I do not have the money or even desire to try and track down a student photographer, and they are probably at least as busy if not more so than I am anyway...I can shoot photos at least well enough to keep up with a mediocre photography student). Bah!
The boy took the day off today though so I will actually be able to spend an evening with him; his job requires mandatory overtime, and he's worked the past 8 days. Last weekend he was more or less available to hang out I was in Lubbock.
All I want to do right now is curl up and knit cute things and work on my NaNovel. I'm so badly behind, if I bust ass and write 2000 words or so a day I might get caught up and finish. But this is doubtful, I haven't written a word in 2 days and I most likely won't write any today.