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sooooooo,
today is a very good day.
my scale has been in the 120 zone for far too long, like a year?
and todayyyyy, i weighed myself and im below 115 (my scale really sucks and is not very detailed so everything is approximate. but im def below 115, like 112-113.
This is soooo fucking cool.
I mean all semester ive been self conscious. tryitng to watch what i eat but always failing.
always caving, always finding an excuse, im tired, im hungover, im hungry, just one, ill be better tomorow. and i may have lost one, but i always got it back.
And then, i tried to get back in the groove. Its always a challenge for me to find the beat again.
and i feel like this success is making me more confident. Because im being pretty healthy.
yes i do purge every once and a while. Something i really need to not do.
But otherwise, im eating a lot of veg. and stuff. I making a lot of soups.
Soups are the best. really. plus green tea all day.
yesterday i had two pieces of pizza though. but purged, gross. (bad me)
Another great thing. Is i found the BEST inspiration.
this may sound weird, but theres this girl who used to be on livejournal,
and she looks just like me, but thinner. And i really dont get it, i mean, of all the pics ive seen of her for the past 7 yrs, she is always tiny. And it doesnt seem like she diets. but what do i know...
Anyhow, this girl is so symbolic to me because not only does she look like me, and is thinner, but she is also like the fucking coolest person in every &#$& way.
I mean every way.
She's thin.
She's so cute.
She's so unbelievably fashionable, but original.
she's creative.
Has so many friends.
the list goes on.
its flabergasting how fucking perfect she is, she's like me, but a better version.
And because of this.
SHE'S THE BEST MOTIVAION/INSPIRATION EVAAAAAAR.
Im so motivated right now,
and i got results today.
and maybe
just maybe i will make it to 105 again, my golden number.
over and out
today is a very good day.
my scale has been in the 120 zone for far too long, like a year?
and todayyyyy, i weighed myself and im below 115 (my scale really sucks and is not very detailed so everything is approximate. but im def below 115, like 112-113.
This is soooo fucking cool.
I mean all semester ive been self conscious. tryitng to watch what i eat but always failing.
always caving, always finding an excuse, im tired, im hungover, im hungry, just one, ill be better tomorow. and i may have lost one, but i always got it back.
And then, i tried to get back in the groove. Its always a challenge for me to find the beat again.
and i feel like this success is making me more confident. Because im being pretty healthy.
yes i do purge every once and a while. Something i really need to not do.
But otherwise, im eating a lot of veg. and stuff. I making a lot of soups.
Soups are the best. really. plus green tea all day.
yesterday i had two pieces of pizza though. but purged, gross. (bad me)
Another great thing. Is i found the BEST inspiration.
this may sound weird, but theres this girl who used to be on livejournal,
and she looks just like me, but thinner. And i really dont get it, i mean, of all the pics ive seen of her for the past 7 yrs, she is always tiny. And it doesnt seem like she diets. but what do i know...
Anyhow, this girl is so symbolic to me because not only does she look like me, and is thinner, but she is also like the fucking coolest person in every &#$& way.
I mean every way.
She's thin.
She's so cute.
She's so unbelievably fashionable, but original.
she's creative.
Has so many friends.
the list goes on.
its flabergasting how fucking perfect she is, she's like me, but a better version.
And because of this.
SHE'S THE BEST MOTIVAION/INSPIRATION EVAAAAAAR.
Im so motivated right now,
and i got results today.
and maybe
just maybe i will make it to 105 again, my golden number.
over and out