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run down of my day...
twisted ankle...hurts real bad...
best friend is moving in with man of MY dreams...she ask what i think about it... go off and now i don't think we can be friends anymore...
auditioned for Rocky..made call back #1...not #2...
didn't "fit in" enough for Enslers play...
can't stop crying...feel like i've lost everything...can't trust myself...
have come to the great conclusion that im the "friend" everybody turns to, to help pick up the pieces...can't take it anymore my pieces are so scattered that i've lost all hope in recovering them...im lost in this big world with only myself to turn to but im afraid to trust myself... the one person who got me...loved through all the good and bad times has told me flat out that i no longer matter... I DONT MATTER... I DONT MATTER...I DONT FUCKING MATTER...its just me and this journal that no one looks at or acknowledges because people are to busy to stop and realize that my feelings hurt and i break very easily...but i guess since i dont matter no one even notices.
twisted ankle...hurts real bad...
best friend is moving in with man of MY dreams...she ask what i think about it... go off and now i don't think we can be friends anymore...
auditioned for Rocky..made call back #1...not #2...
didn't "fit in" enough for Enslers play...
can't stop crying...feel like i've lost everything...can't trust myself...
have come to the great conclusion that im the "friend" everybody turns to, to help pick up the pieces...can't take it anymore my pieces are so scattered that i've lost all hope in recovering them...im lost in this big world with only myself to turn to but im afraid to trust myself... the one person who got me...loved through all the good and bad times has told me flat out that i no longer matter... I DONT MATTER... I DONT MATTER...I DONT FUCKING MATTER...its just me and this journal that no one looks at or acknowledges because people are to busy to stop and realize that my feelings hurt and i break very easily...but i guess since i dont matter no one even notices.