It was one of THOSE kinda nights

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Well today was good but around 5 when I had to go to work I felt distracted by like nothing at all. I couldnt seem to consentrate on anything, then this taurus boy, Chu came in to get his normal daily Starbucks and he talked to me for a while but him being there distracted me even more. I swear I made the biggest fool outta myself when he was there. I made 3 drinks wrong in a row and then I knocked a shot glass over and broke it. He was laughing at me. Then he said "ok time to focus on me" and he started to tell me something but becuase I couldnt seem to consentrate on even him I didnt hear him. And he was like " you werent even paying attention" So i told him I couldnt hear him he was mumbling. I dunno if that irratated him or not but he left shortly after that but he said goodbye so I just think I am over exaggerating it. So then I was feeling a bit depressed and still distracted by nothing and I was asked to go on my break. I tmed Josh and he was like I am already on my way be there in like 2 secs. It was perfect timing. I was like JOSHY!!!! He wasnt having the greatest of days either so it was good to just sit down and talk about things for a little bit with him. I was like I just want to be hugged and he did it for me I felt so much better after that. I wasnt distracted for the rest of the night. I think I am just lonely, like sextual frustrated. I dont want to approach boys becuase I am kinda scared of them and what could happen I dont want to be hurt again like I dont want to move on from where I am but I dont want to stay alone either. I want to be comfortable but not work at it. I want it to just be there without thinking about it. *sighs* I dunno. I just want it all but I dunno how to approach people. I tend to fall into that friends category with alot of the boys I know and it sucks because I feel so lonely. Maybe I should just tell this boy I wanta hang out some time with him. Go to a movie or something . I know he likes movies like Cristin said we have something in common. Well I dunno I am going to go to bed and maybe tomorrow I will feel better about everything that is going on. I have to work all of tomorrow so I am going to be tired by tomorrow night.

*Screams* AGHSJDKHGKJSHDGLKJHSDKJGHJKDSGHJDHGKJHSDGKJHSDGKJ *Breathes* Ok I feel a little better about things now I have done my rambling and hopefully I will be able to get my frustration out of me soon I need to pick up a habit to make me feel not so tense about my life. Maybe I should have gone out dancing this weekend its a form of exercise and I havent really danced since we went to Elmira.