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What's the balance between letting things happen and making things happen?
Often lately I've been telling myself, if God wants this person/event in my life, he'll keep them in my life. If it's meant to be, it will happen. But when does that end and I have to take things into my hands if I want something to happen? It's something I've never quite figured out. When I try to make things happen sometimes I end up sabotaging myself, but if I do nothing--nothing ever happens.
I kissed my pastor's son Friday night. And then got sloppy drunk and apparently threw myself at him. Ugh, there I go again.
I'm getting that restless feeling again. I usually cure that with traveling--random trips that remind me of life outside of my own. In four weeks I go to Europe, but I can't shake the feeling that it's not going to happen for some reason. Maybe it's because last minute my European trip in high school was canceled in lieu of 9-11.
Besides, I really can't think about things much with all the schoolwork I have in the next few weeks. :(
26 Days until I'm living it up in London, Normandy, and Paris
37 Days until I have a legitimate excuse to get too drunk
Often lately I've been telling myself, if God wants this person/event in my life, he'll keep them in my life. If it's meant to be, it will happen. But when does that end and I have to take things into my hands if I want something to happen? It's something I've never quite figured out. When I try to make things happen sometimes I end up sabotaging myself, but if I do nothing--nothing ever happens.
I kissed my pastor's son Friday night. And then got sloppy drunk and apparently threw myself at him. Ugh, there I go again.
I'm getting that restless feeling again. I usually cure that with traveling--random trips that remind me of life outside of my own. In four weeks I go to Europe, but I can't shake the feeling that it's not going to happen for some reason. Maybe it's because last minute my European trip in high school was canceled in lieu of 9-11.
Besides, I really can't think about things much with all the schoolwork I have in the next few weeks. :(
26 Days until I'm living it up in London, Normandy, and Paris
37 Days until I have a legitimate excuse to get too drunk