not in the mood right now.
I hate to say it, but getting Edgar away from the front desk and in the back room is going to be the biggest blessing in our relationship so far. He wants his word to be taken as the word of God and if it's not, well he'll get pissy as all hell and probably yell at me...actually that's the most likely conclusion.
It's weird how I go through these stages, I love him...I know I do, but there are times, such as now...that I don't know if I should be with him. Is it inevitable that we break up? Does it really matter if I tell him how I feel if a break up is in sight? Nga is right, I deserve to feel what I feel and I deserve to tell him that. I'm so afraid of what he will or will not say, but if it ends up being the worst, then I can stop wasting my time with a man who doesn't love me, spends my money and in some cases emotionally abuses me. On the bright side, I'll be rich :) which means more shopping :) Maybe I'd get to be with my girlies and stop missing out on college.
He's not in the mood right now.
It's weird how I go through these stages, I love him...I know I do, but there are times, such as now...that I don't know if I should be with him. Is it inevitable that we break up? Does it really matter if I tell him how I feel if a break up is in sight? Nga is right, I deserve to feel what I feel and I deserve to tell him that. I'm so afraid of what he will or will not say, but if it ends up being the worst, then I can stop wasting my time with a man who doesn't love me, spends my money and in some cases emotionally abuses me. On the bright side, I'll be rich :) which means more shopping :) Maybe I'd get to be with my girlies and stop missing out on college.
He's not in the mood right now.