too much shit
i dont know as of lately what to do with shit... i cant stop talking to people its how i vent and get shit off my mind... if i didnt talk to people ide end up hurting myself like i did last year... and i dont want to do that, but talking to people fucks things up because no one can keep something i tell them to themselves and the whole world finds out... i mean yes i could talk to jessica but i dont want her to be the first person i talk to because the first time i talk about something i usually end up yelling and bitching and shit, and i dont want her to feel shitty because of my stupid self... but shes about the only one i trust, because everyone else will tell some1... and i dont want that. if i wanted people to know shit maybe ide post it in here, or tell everyone... but when i specifcally say "DONT TELL ANYONE" that dont mean well i can tell this person and thats it because that person will do the same and it will go on and on... and if i talk to people befor i talk to jessica and they tell jessica that pisses me off cuz i would like to tell her shit myself... i dont know anymore seems like everything i do is wrong and im a fuck up, and talking to plp is bad, but if i dont ill do bad things... who fucking knows it fucking blows wow it rhymes lol... what ever.... i dont know what to do anyone got ideas... i cold use some fucking help!?