D-Day-1
Today is just the first of two rounds of my last finals. I woke up early with Derrick to go get some food at Starbucks, but not coffee. My nerves are a little on end, probably due to the stress I've been going through. When I woke up, I did feel pretty sick to my stomach, but I'm trying to force that away because I believe its all mental. Today, at least as much as I can believe, I am prepared for these tests. The only thing I have left to do for these tests is to create my sheets for my Problems in Corporate Finance class. My Sales Management class should be simple, though I really dont like the idea of driving all the way out to Hayward to take a quick test in less than an hour. Oh well.
Two more days and my college career (for now) will be over; at least the brunt of it. I'm thinking about going back later on and getting my credentials and maybe even my masters or a second bachelors in Japanese/Chinese. I dont know, some time off from school for a while though will help me regain focus on what I really want to do.
Running/walking last night seemed to help a lot. All this stress I'm putting on myself is really killing my muscles, especially my neck. So much reading and hunching forward to do so, I'm sure its not good.
I got most of my announcements done, and Derrick is mailing off the ones who are too far to hand deliver. I honestly do feel a little cheated about this who graduation thing. Normally, at least from what I know of it, your family is suppose to prepare your announcements and mail them off to your friends and family members. I did them with Derrick's help, without help from my family. They knew that I've been working my ass off, taking on a promotion all while amist my last quarter of finals, I guess I expected them to help me a little bit. Or at least offer... My aunt and uncle down south sent me a graduation card, so at least that means my dad is telling them about my school, but still. Oh well, I cant make assumptions I guess. If I wanted them to help, I should have told them I needed it, regardless of how busy I've been. This is on me. I cant get mad at them for it.
I am fearing the future quite a bit. I cant help it. Brian told me to stop dwelling on the past, so instead I am focusing on the future. lol I know its probably not the response he was hoping for, but I cant help it. I stopped half way writing this and got lost on youtube again... damn videos. Onward to the future!
Two more days and my college career (for now) will be over; at least the brunt of it. I'm thinking about going back later on and getting my credentials and maybe even my masters or a second bachelors in Japanese/Chinese. I dont know, some time off from school for a while though will help me regain focus on what I really want to do.
Running/walking last night seemed to help a lot. All this stress I'm putting on myself is really killing my muscles, especially my neck. So much reading and hunching forward to do so, I'm sure its not good.
I got most of my announcements done, and Derrick is mailing off the ones who are too far to hand deliver. I honestly do feel a little cheated about this who graduation thing. Normally, at least from what I know of it, your family is suppose to prepare your announcements and mail them off to your friends and family members. I did them with Derrick's help, without help from my family. They knew that I've been working my ass off, taking on a promotion all while amist my last quarter of finals, I guess I expected them to help me a little bit. Or at least offer... My aunt and uncle down south sent me a graduation card, so at least that means my dad is telling them about my school, but still. Oh well, I cant make assumptions I guess. If I wanted them to help, I should have told them I needed it, regardless of how busy I've been. This is on me. I cant get mad at them for it.
I am fearing the future quite a bit. I cant help it. Brian told me to stop dwelling on the past, so instead I am focusing on the future. lol I know its probably not the response he was hoping for, but I cant help it. I stopped half way writing this and got lost on youtube again... damn videos. Onward to the future!