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I am in such a low mood today, part of me wants to just sit down and cry. I think it was a month ago today that I had a complete emotional meltdown, ended up crying the whole night and had red, puffy eyes at work the next day. I'm not as bad as I was then, since that time was a reaction to several months of build up. But still, it was triggered by hormones, since the next day Aunt Flo arrived. And now I'm feeling much the same. I just feel like I can't do anything right.
Compound that with the persistent rumor that my favorite anime is ending in two weeks, and that my mom has been sick and had to go to the hospital for complicated tests, and I'm just not in the mood to do anything but surf the web aimlessly.
The people I most want to talk to aren't online. So here I sit, stewing.
I hate hormones. I hate what they're doing to me. I hate that I can't pull myself out of this. What the HELL is wrong with me? Nothing serious happened, nobody died, and the thing people have apparently been complaining about at work can be easily fixed.
Fuck you, emotions. Fuck you, hormones. Fuck you, mood swings.
Just fuck off and leave me the fuck alone.
Compound that with the persistent rumor that my favorite anime is ending in two weeks, and that my mom has been sick and had to go to the hospital for complicated tests, and I'm just not in the mood to do anything but surf the web aimlessly.
The people I most want to talk to aren't online. So here I sit, stewing.
I hate hormones. I hate what they're doing to me. I hate that I can't pull myself out of this. What the HELL is wrong with me? Nothing serious happened, nobody died, and the thing people have apparently been complaining about at work can be easily fixed.
Fuck you, emotions. Fuck you, hormones. Fuck you, mood swings.
Just fuck off and leave me the fuck alone.