making up for lost time...
After a week of not working (blame it on klutziness and laziness) I'm halfway through a full work week and I actually kind of like it. I've got mixed feelings about it all, though... I've been busy but then, not busy enough. I've been too busy to do the dishes, take out the trash, or even deposit my paychecks! But then, I've had plenty of time to think too much and still get enough sleep.
It's been a while since I last updated and to be honest, not much is really happening in my life. I went to Hong Kong, played my part in Ev's wedding (it was beautiful), and then came back to work at my store and close it down for renovations. That's right. My store is closed. I had 2 days to get over jet lag and it was back to work for me... and I worked my butt off. It was rewarding and surreal at the same time, emptying out the store. I felt important that they wanted me to help through the whole process. At the end of it all, we cleared out the place of clothes, fixtures, and anything that we could detach and move. And then, I was off to the east side to transfer to another store and work there. I wasn't looking forward to the commute or the actual store... but I sucked it up. I hated it the first 2 days I worked. The people that work there are lazy and when they don't do their job it makes it hard for me to do my job... and in some way, customer service doesn't REALLY exist at that store. But now, all that has changed. Team U-Vill. has moved in and we're kicking their butts with our customer sales... and James is totally intimidating them and making them actually work. I love it. Now, it's bearable. And I am slowly getting to know the people that work there and the kind of customers that shop there... I still miss my store, but I have to wait for July to roll around so that we can re-open!
Aside from work I decided that I was ready to get myself out there again... so I thought I'd try to meet people, specifically guys... you know, sorta date... but without all the pressure, maybe. It turns out that doesn't work. Right now I'm kind of playing the avoidance game with this one guy that I kissed and realize I have no chemistry with... and I don't have the guts to tell him that yet. I'll probably end up using the excuse that I'm not over my ex yet... which isn't a complete lie, it's just a bit of a stretch. That story, in itself, is kind of complicated. What the kicker really is: he's already dating again... less than 2 weeks after our breakup and I find out he's already got someone who was waiting on the sides... and now it's serious. I don't really want to get into that... I'm trying to be the good person here and I AM glad that he's happy... but what about me? Why can't I not care about these guys and how they feel? I mean, is it so wrong to want them to think of our past fondly and hope for a continuation of some kind of relationship/friendship AFTER the fact, especially when it's an amicable split? I suppose Dan is the special one... but that's only because he hasn't found his special someone. But he did, momentarily... and I still maintain that every guy, after a relationship with me, ends up finding their special someone (i.e. marriage/serious consideration for marriage). I'm the female equivalent of Dumping Billy... just without the happy ending.
So, with a few failed dating ventures I think I might be calling it quits early. I'm going to just take a break from dating and relationships... just build on my friendships. I'm ready for the one I want to be with. Now I just need to find him. Or he needs to find me. In the meantime, I continue to hang out with the friends I DO have (the few) and hopefully build off of those. I hope I'll end up making more friends (maybe outside of work again?) but I don't know how to do that just yet. With time, though.
I still spend my free time alone with my TV and lately I've had the yearning to go on a road trip or vacation somewhere with someone or to visit someone... but I don't know where, with who, or visiting who... and I also don't have the funds to support such an adventure. For now, I'll have to just keep working. I just want to have some down time, good laughs, and share moments with people...
Things are going well... and yet, I still have this empty feeling inside of me. Every now and then I feel like breaking down and crying. And I don't know why or what is bothering me... but I just want to move past it and make it go away. In general, though, I'm content.
Highlight of the past few weeks: J came into town and I saw him this side of the hemisphere for a couple hours. I miss that kid. I could spend all day with him and never get tired or bored...
Other notables:
- I finally saw Camelot, the musical... it's cheesy, campy, but fun.
- I got my car checked, oil changed, and it's all road ready... and way past it's 5K mark!
- I went to another one of Andy's (one of Nora's friends) parties but sadly, forgot to take my benadryl beforehand and my allergies freaked out so I had to leave early...
- Tons of customer comments saying they'd like to report to some authority about how wonderful I was with helping them and they hope I get some recognition... what an ego boost!
And that's all... photos of the wedding are still on facebook... I'll eventually upload for you lj-only people...
It's been a while since I last updated and to be honest, not much is really happening in my life. I went to Hong Kong, played my part in Ev's wedding (it was beautiful), and then came back to work at my store and close it down for renovations. That's right. My store is closed. I had 2 days to get over jet lag and it was back to work for me... and I worked my butt off. It was rewarding and surreal at the same time, emptying out the store. I felt important that they wanted me to help through the whole process. At the end of it all, we cleared out the place of clothes, fixtures, and anything that we could detach and move. And then, I was off to the east side to transfer to another store and work there. I wasn't looking forward to the commute or the actual store... but I sucked it up. I hated it the first 2 days I worked. The people that work there are lazy and when they don't do their job it makes it hard for me to do my job... and in some way, customer service doesn't REALLY exist at that store. But now, all that has changed. Team U-Vill. has moved in and we're kicking their butts with our customer sales... and James is totally intimidating them and making them actually work. I love it. Now, it's bearable. And I am slowly getting to know the people that work there and the kind of customers that shop there... I still miss my store, but I have to wait for July to roll around so that we can re-open!
Aside from work I decided that I was ready to get myself out there again... so I thought I'd try to meet people, specifically guys... you know, sorta date... but without all the pressure, maybe. It turns out that doesn't work. Right now I'm kind of playing the avoidance game with this one guy that I kissed and realize I have no chemistry with... and I don't have the guts to tell him that yet. I'll probably end up using the excuse that I'm not over my ex yet... which isn't a complete lie, it's just a bit of a stretch. That story, in itself, is kind of complicated. What the kicker really is: he's already dating again... less than 2 weeks after our breakup and I find out he's already got someone who was waiting on the sides... and now it's serious. I don't really want to get into that... I'm trying to be the good person here and I AM glad that he's happy... but what about me? Why can't I not care about these guys and how they feel? I mean, is it so wrong to want them to think of our past fondly and hope for a continuation of some kind of relationship/friendship AFTER the fact, especially when it's an amicable split? I suppose Dan is the special one... but that's only because he hasn't found his special someone. But he did, momentarily... and I still maintain that every guy, after a relationship with me, ends up finding their special someone (i.e. marriage/serious consideration for marriage). I'm the female equivalent of Dumping Billy... just without the happy ending.
So, with a few failed dating ventures I think I might be calling it quits early. I'm going to just take a break from dating and relationships... just build on my friendships. I'm ready for the one I want to be with. Now I just need to find him. Or he needs to find me. In the meantime, I continue to hang out with the friends I DO have (the few) and hopefully build off of those. I hope I'll end up making more friends (maybe outside of work again?) but I don't know how to do that just yet. With time, though.
I still spend my free time alone with my TV and lately I've had the yearning to go on a road trip or vacation somewhere with someone or to visit someone... but I don't know where, with who, or visiting who... and I also don't have the funds to support such an adventure. For now, I'll have to just keep working. I just want to have some down time, good laughs, and share moments with people...
Things are going well... and yet, I still have this empty feeling inside of me. Every now and then I feel like breaking down and crying. And I don't know why or what is bothering me... but I just want to move past it and make it go away. In general, though, I'm content.
Highlight of the past few weeks: J came into town and I saw him this side of the hemisphere for a couple hours. I miss that kid. I could spend all day with him and never get tired or bored...
Other notables:
- I finally saw Camelot, the musical... it's cheesy, campy, but fun.
- I got my car checked, oil changed, and it's all road ready... and way past it's 5K mark!
- I went to another one of Andy's (one of Nora's friends) parties but sadly, forgot to take my benadryl beforehand and my allergies freaked out so I had to leave early...
- Tons of customer comments saying they'd like to report to some authority about how wonderful I was with helping them and they hope I get some recognition... what an ego boost!
And that's all... photos of the wedding are still on facebook... I'll eventually upload for you lj-only people...