its been a long time
i dont know where to start. maybe this should be an open letter to everyone. ok.
Dear everyone:
Brent:
I'm sorry. I don't expect to be forgiven and i dont deserve it. It sounds like you are doing ok. and I admit, reading your live journal is a guilty pleasure.
mom and dad: living 700 miles away has been such a learning experience. all the things i now realize that you did for me prepared me for this. while there was a lot i feel you did wrong, and there was a bit that you couldn't have done to prepare me for anything i couldnt' have known was coming. i know thats disjointed, but thats how it is.
jill and steve: I hate you. you hate me. nuff said
mom and dad young: i dont hate you and i dont hate your son and please dont throw my stuff out i'll be back to get it soon i promise
grandma smith: your a crazy old bitch that everyone hates. dont take me out of your will
grandma sampson: i miss you but im glad your gone. im sure you'd be disappointed in me. if there was someone i didnt want to let down, it was you
dave: how long are we gonna stay on life support? i want to move on but i can't walk away. but if you havent come around by now, when will you? probably never. you make my selfishness look like its not so bad. i hate your mom and dad.
mom and dad sklar: I hate you
pat: look over here
jaimie: you are a beautiful person and kind but you need help. you have to let the past go. i've started that and its wonderful. not everything is a personal attack.
dear me:
stop being an idiot. start being that person brent thought you could be. start being that person your therepist thought you could be. be the person you want to be. start now. now. now
Dear everyone:
Brent:
I'm sorry. I don't expect to be forgiven and i dont deserve it. It sounds like you are doing ok. and I admit, reading your live journal is a guilty pleasure.
mom and dad: living 700 miles away has been such a learning experience. all the things i now realize that you did for me prepared me for this. while there was a lot i feel you did wrong, and there was a bit that you couldn't have done to prepare me for anything i couldnt' have known was coming. i know thats disjointed, but thats how it is.
jill and steve: I hate you. you hate me. nuff said
mom and dad young: i dont hate you and i dont hate your son and please dont throw my stuff out i'll be back to get it soon i promise
grandma smith: your a crazy old bitch that everyone hates. dont take me out of your will
grandma sampson: i miss you but im glad your gone. im sure you'd be disappointed in me. if there was someone i didnt want to let down, it was you
dave: how long are we gonna stay on life support? i want to move on but i can't walk away. but if you havent come around by now, when will you? probably never. you make my selfishness look like its not so bad. i hate your mom and dad.
mom and dad sklar: I hate you
pat: look over here
jaimie: you are a beautiful person and kind but you need help. you have to let the past go. i've started that and its wonderful. not everything is a personal attack.
dear me:
stop being an idiot. start being that person brent thought you could be. start being that person your therepist thought you could be. be the person you want to be. start now. now. now