when I call .... it'll say "Sex Kitten" .... and you'll know it's me :)
I have this immense need to write ... no it's more than that ... I want to write and wander ... too much of my thoughts are being held in ... I know the reason for it ... I lost my best friend, my rock, my sounding board ... and I have no control over whether or not they come back .... so I'm dealing I guess ... it's hard ... especially when you go from talking to a person DAILY to once a week if we're lucky .... it makes me so incredible sad ... but not defeated yet, and that is me being the optimist that I am .... I will always hope that what we had will be worth them coming back ... I miss my best friend, my everything ....
I need a fellow night wanderer ... which makes it perfect that Meg is coming home very soon ... but I need that connection .... I'm a night person ... I'm fully awake at midnight and want to roam ... but I get freaked out when I do that alone ... if you're raised to believe that behind every bush and hidden in every shadow is someone wanting to steal you away, then it's a hard thought to get rid of .... added to the fact that Brad, Joe, Steve, Allen and Phil decided to prove to me yesterday that I could EASILY be stolen .... and they proved this by showing me they could just pick me up and run off with me over their shoulder one by one ... when a boy smaller and slightly shorter than you can "steal" you and RUN you have to worry ... right??? ... man those boys are crazy ... I love my boys ... ha ha I am Sex Kitten and Skids is Sex Panda ... he makes me laugh ... "steve, the tv was OFF, you weren't watching Aqua Teen!" "that's what you think!" ...
Oh I had a point when I started ... I think ... naw probably not ... just another procrastination ....
I need a fellow night wanderer ... which makes it perfect that Meg is coming home very soon ... but I need that connection .... I'm a night person ... I'm fully awake at midnight and want to roam ... but I get freaked out when I do that alone ... if you're raised to believe that behind every bush and hidden in every shadow is someone wanting to steal you away, then it's a hard thought to get rid of .... added to the fact that Brad, Joe, Steve, Allen and Phil decided to prove to me yesterday that I could EASILY be stolen .... and they proved this by showing me they could just pick me up and run off with me over their shoulder one by one ... when a boy smaller and slightly shorter than you can "steal" you and RUN you have to worry ... right??? ... man those boys are crazy ... I love my boys ... ha ha I am Sex Kitten and Skids is Sex Panda ... he makes me laugh ... "steve, the tv was OFF, you weren't watching Aqua Teen!" "that's what you think!" ...
Oh I had a point when I started ... I think ... naw probably not ... just another procrastination ....