SCREAMING !!!!!!!!!!
ugh.. whine... i wanna go home! yeah, i'm calling tacoma home. i guess it is now. tomorrow i'm supposed to go with jazz & abby and their friend to some cancer walk.. not sure how depressed i can be. this might be a BAD idea.
right before i left i found out my dad was in kidney failure, right... so they started dialysis... said there's no hope he'll be able to go off it. which means no chemo anymore. and now they can't get him fed because of his stomach ulcer problem.. so he's not getting proper nutrition and just wasting away... and apparently now he's got pneumonia. fuck! he was just fucking diagnosed 2 months ago!!! rrrrrrgh... screaming so i don't cry anymore!!!!
um, let's see... camarillo sucks. i wanna go home. oh i said that hahhaha. i'm praying john is gonna take me home next weekend. ex-stepmom faye wants mike and i to fly to florida to see my dad.. maybe i should just ask her to fly me directly home from there? i don't even know if we're going or not. mike doesn't want to. i feel like i ought to.. wouldn't want to regret not seeing him before he died... but i don't want to go alone... and yet, i'm so fucking sick of mike. i just need to be alone. he's been cool as hell, but i just need to have some time to myself. shit, i've been hanging out with him everyday since he came to WA almost 2 weeks ago. i'm such a bitch.
right before i left i found out my dad was in kidney failure, right... so they started dialysis... said there's no hope he'll be able to go off it. which means no chemo anymore. and now they can't get him fed because of his stomach ulcer problem.. so he's not getting proper nutrition and just wasting away... and apparently now he's got pneumonia. fuck! he was just fucking diagnosed 2 months ago!!! rrrrrrgh... screaming so i don't cry anymore!!!!
um, let's see... camarillo sucks. i wanna go home. oh i said that hahhaha. i'm praying john is gonna take me home next weekend. ex-stepmom faye wants mike and i to fly to florida to see my dad.. maybe i should just ask her to fly me directly home from there? i don't even know if we're going or not. mike doesn't want to. i feel like i ought to.. wouldn't want to regret not seeing him before he died... but i don't want to go alone... and yet, i'm so fucking sick of mike. i just need to be alone. he's been cool as hell, but i just need to have some time to myself. shit, i've been hanging out with him everyday since he came to WA almost 2 weeks ago. i'm such a bitch.