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What I am trying to figure out is how do I stop feeling guilty and ashamed.
I stopped eating meat and despite my best efforts I cannot stop thinking about cheeseburgers. I dream about steakhouses. I watch videos of how terribly animals are treated and how brutal their deaths are and it makes me feel sad and that I am doing the right thing, but it doesn't stop my constant plaguing thoughts of hickory smoked bacon. This isn't normal, I know it. Real vegetarians and vegans have a firm grasp on what they are doing, I am just an interloper, not eating meat but constantly craving it, like some heartless eating machine. Do these cravings go away? Does anyone know? Or do you just have them and feel terrible all the time?
I work at Starbucks. What does this MEAN why am I so unmotivated to move my life in a positive direction? I am terrified of failure so I give myself excuses like: Starbucks has great health insurance! They are concerned with the environment and sustainability! Except for how I do not make a living wage and cannot support my own self. Except for thaaaat.
Something in me needs a change of attitude. I mean it always comes back to my baaaad attitude. I'm looking for a miracle in my life, even if it's just a little baby one
I stopped eating meat and despite my best efforts I cannot stop thinking about cheeseburgers. I dream about steakhouses. I watch videos of how terribly animals are treated and how brutal their deaths are and it makes me feel sad and that I am doing the right thing, but it doesn't stop my constant plaguing thoughts of hickory smoked bacon. This isn't normal, I know it. Real vegetarians and vegans have a firm grasp on what they are doing, I am just an interloper, not eating meat but constantly craving it, like some heartless eating machine. Do these cravings go away? Does anyone know? Or do you just have them and feel terrible all the time?
I work at Starbucks. What does this MEAN why am I so unmotivated to move my life in a positive direction? I am terrified of failure so I give myself excuses like: Starbucks has great health insurance! They are concerned with the environment and sustainability! Except for how I do not make a living wage and cannot support my own self. Except for thaaaat.
Something in me needs a change of attitude. I mean it always comes back to my baaaad attitude. I'm looking for a miracle in my life, even if it's just a little baby one