The first time I'd prayed in months as I stood there crying silently...
Today shall be divided into two halves. First half - GRAND! I had pre LGT all day, so that rockkked. We were in the water the first 5 hours except for lunch, which improved my tan, or lack of. The last hour me, Ryan,and Klaire sat around the electric heater trying to light things on fireand Ryan kept messing with me because of my err...condition.Heh. Ryan - " I hate to break it to you Rach,but you're friends are loooosers." Haha. <3
Second half - SUCKY. Came home, had an hour to get ready, then we had to run out the door to church ( didn't want to go ) and my parents got pissed cause I made us a little late because I had just gotten home. I sat in church, staring at the backs of the people's heads. The people who belong there. I felt like such a hypocrite. My mouth was moving but I knew nothing was coming out, either physcially or mentally. I wish I belonged there. Somebody like God would be nice, somebody that loves you no matter how much you screw up, and will always be around somewhere somehow, and something to believe in. But I'm not as lucky as all of that. Then my parents had planned on going out to dinner with the rest of our " church friends " but I didn't feel good so my parents made a big deal about me going, and then my dad just ended up taking my brothers and I to dinner, which he had to drive me home from because, as I mentioned to him before, I didn't feel good. So he brought home Wendys for me and we colored Easter eggs. I got in trouble for writing " Happy Freakin Easter." on an egg.