Stuck in a Construction Zone….
Originally published at ~+>Blue's Journal. Please leave any comments there.
So that last entry as a little depressing… I will admit i am still quite reluctant to accept what i wrote, but i feel it is a necessary part of growing in my life. True or not, right or wrong, I think that night really helped open my eyes a little. I will say though after taking the time to put into words what i was feeling it did give me time to think through the emotional issues i was/am dealing with.
As of right now i am stuck in a traffic jam trying to get through a construction zone. Although its not a fun place to be, its giving me time to think about what options are available. There are some open lanes, but for now i am staying put because the traffic signs are still changing. One minute things are good, the next they change and the message is fuzzy so i think its best i wait until i get a sign that doesn’t change so much. Unfortunately thats the problem of the traffic jam, but i have become a little more patient. Those of you who know my driving habits me slowing down and even sitting still is quite a change. In this context, I feel it is necessary.
Whatever road happens to be the one i choose i am going to stay on it, i am not taking another pit stop like the last time, i ended up in the ‘hood and almost got car jacked because of a wrong turn and not calling for directions when i knew better. Fortunately i am well prepared now thanks to this time I’ve had to myself.
As i see the world around me changing as i sit in traffic, for a few moments i feel at peace until my mind goes back to beings stuck in traffic. These ever so brief moments of clarity are something that take me by surprise lately. They give a small sense of hope, and a bit of relief, the thought that things might be well in a world full of turmoil. However insignificant and no matter what it is that just so happens to cause these moments, they are truly wonderful. The precious time i have in that mindset remind me of a short time in life i was on a wide open road with only the 18-wheeler to pass ever few miles.
I am going to get there. I will get through this. This is just one of the many construction zones i am going to have to drive through in life. It maybe the biggest one I’ve been in, but it still just a construction zone.
Back to listening to my radio and texting on my cell;
~+>Blue