Fuck! It's a LION! Get in the car!
So. Sooooooooo I'm going to Pride this Sunday. Never done that before. Jen goes every year; it was the one place she always felt acceptable, regardless of her personal circumstances. I'm not gonna break the tradition...
...but shit, I feel so awkward at stuff like that! I mean, I hate going to ANY parades downtown 'cause there are SO MANY PEOPLE. But i especially hate going to gay-centric stuff. Probably some sort of internalized homophobia, I guess... I just hate being so damn OPEN about it. Sex and sexuality isn't really something we discuss in our family. It is personal, private, and kept between spouses (unless you "mess up" and then you have to confess to Mom and get your penance or whatever). I don't like how exposed I feel when i'm at an event where the simple act of BEING there puts a big neon FAG! sign on me.
I dunno.
I'm nervous.
...but shit, I feel so awkward at stuff like that! I mean, I hate going to ANY parades downtown 'cause there are SO MANY PEOPLE. But i especially hate going to gay-centric stuff. Probably some sort of internalized homophobia, I guess... I just hate being so damn OPEN about it. Sex and sexuality isn't really something we discuss in our family. It is personal, private, and kept between spouses (unless you "mess up" and then you have to confess to Mom and get your penance or whatever). I don't like how exposed I feel when i'm at an event where the simple act of BEING there puts a big neon FAG! sign on me.
I dunno.
I'm nervous.