"Good morrow to thee" Friends locked to Dave, Mar, Heather, Kar, Lis, Lys, and Chlo.
Someone just told me that. How cool.
I feel like last night was ok. Mar didn't have a good experience last night, and it seemed like something was wrong with Heather, I agree, but she should feel open enough to tell us if something's bothering her, because we had just had a roommate meeting and talked about things, and maybe she didn't feel like sharing all of her feelings with us again. My grandma told me on Monday that the more we talk about things, and even think about them, the more energy we put into them. And that perpetuates feelings. Any feelings. Resentment, unhappiness, whatever. And in no way do I think that we sh ouldn't talk about our upset feelings, because I want to know when Heather's upset, or when Mar's feeling this, or when Ash wants to talk about Joe or anything. But sometimes I feel like I don't want to talk about things with everyone, at least not immediately, because thinking them through in your head is important too. Sometimes I come up with the best solutions or make decisions simply by stating what I think or feel out loud, and that helps, but sometimes its best worked out or thought about in your own head, I think. And maybe she felt like that last night. And now I'm just guessing what was going on, but I hope it was nothing really bad, and maybe we'll talk about it later on today, and I'd like to, if there's bad feelings there.
I think the roommate meeting was ok. But that's just because I felt like it got somewhere. which is kinda lame, because we've been talking about those things for ages, but I think addressing them to everyone at the same time in a meeting, felt like we'll do them, or acknowledge the things we talked about easier, and I think I'll be more comfortable saying anything if I'm not happy with a situation. So. I guess I kind of felt like things were bouncing off me. Seriously. Like I had armor on or something. For real. Even with Bryce. Sometimes after we hook up, or make out or something, I'm all shakey the next day, or I feel like I have a hangover, like I'm dehydrated. It's wierd, but it's happened a few times. And I've wondered if it's because I'm putting too much of myself into "us" at that time, or, like, giving off too much of my energy or something. That might sound wierd, but hey. It's true. Gosh, that's really personal, now that I think about it.
And so lately I've been kind of trying to not.....do that as much. I guess like I said, give off so much of my energy, or maybe to take in his....that sounds like I'm sucking out his soul, lol. But that's now how i mean it. Those of you understand, do, and those of you that don't think Im a freak. Whatever. But yeah, so last night, with Bryce, I still kind of felt like I had a shield, didn't feel the drop of any of my... "power" or energy or anything. I guess I felt powerful last night, might be a way to describe it. And so I was left feeling fine.
I got both my papers done shitty, didn't do the reading for Shakespeare so I went there and just asked Samantha who sits next to me to hand in my paper, so I left without taking the quiz, took a nap, then showered and looked nice, and now I'm at work. I feel like it should be evening already. I think I might hang out with Bryce when I get home before dancing, and tomorrow I will too.
He's so awkward. LOL.
I feel like last night was ok. Mar didn't have a good experience last night, and it seemed like something was wrong with Heather, I agree, but she should feel open enough to tell us if something's bothering her, because we had just had a roommate meeting and talked about things, and maybe she didn't feel like sharing all of her feelings with us again. My grandma told me on Monday that the more we talk about things, and even think about them, the more energy we put into them. And that perpetuates feelings. Any feelings. Resentment, unhappiness, whatever. And in no way do I think that we sh ouldn't talk about our upset feelings, because I want to know when Heather's upset, or when Mar's feeling this, or when Ash wants to talk about Joe or anything. But sometimes I feel like I don't want to talk about things with everyone, at least not immediately, because thinking them through in your head is important too. Sometimes I come up with the best solutions or make decisions simply by stating what I think or feel out loud, and that helps, but sometimes its best worked out or thought about in your own head, I think. And maybe she felt like that last night. And now I'm just guessing what was going on, but I hope it was nothing really bad, and maybe we'll talk about it later on today, and I'd like to, if there's bad feelings there.
I think the roommate meeting was ok. But that's just because I felt like it got somewhere. which is kinda lame, because we've been talking about those things for ages, but I think addressing them to everyone at the same time in a meeting, felt like we'll do them, or acknowledge the things we talked about easier, and I think I'll be more comfortable saying anything if I'm not happy with a situation. So. I guess I kind of felt like things were bouncing off me. Seriously. Like I had armor on or something. For real. Even with Bryce. Sometimes after we hook up, or make out or something, I'm all shakey the next day, or I feel like I have a hangover, like I'm dehydrated. It's wierd, but it's happened a few times. And I've wondered if it's because I'm putting too much of myself into "us" at that time, or, like, giving off too much of my energy or something. That might sound wierd, but hey. It's true. Gosh, that's really personal, now that I think about it.
And so lately I've been kind of trying to not.....do that as much. I guess like I said, give off so much of my energy, or maybe to take in his....that sounds like I'm sucking out his soul, lol. But that's now how i mean it. Those of you understand, do, and those of you that don't think Im a freak. Whatever. But yeah, so last night, with Bryce, I still kind of felt like I had a shield, didn't feel the drop of any of my... "power" or energy or anything. I guess I felt powerful last night, might be a way to describe it. And so I was left feeling fine.
I got both my papers done shitty, didn't do the reading for Shakespeare so I went there and just asked Samantha who sits next to me to hand in my paper, so I left without taking the quiz, took a nap, then showered and looked nice, and now I'm at work. I feel like it should be evening already. I think I might hang out with Bryce when I get home before dancing, and tomorrow I will too.
He's so awkward. LOL.