It is so much clearer after all
On my way home from work the other day I had a sort of revelation that makes so much more sense now than it did at the time. As I drove down the express way at about 8:30, I became very bored and started looking around and just making general observations on the surrounding areas. Well I happened to look off to the west and notice the most beautiful sunset that I have ever seen. Now I'm not sure what song I was listening to at the moment but it was some random Bowling for Soup song but at the moment of looking at the sunset and just listening to the music I made a connection. I usually don't pay much attention to the lyrics of a song but for that moment I connected with everything. I felt as if a sheet was lifted off of me and the world seemed so much clearer to me. I am still in shock of the way that I felt over this but it has changed my outlook on life. I have realized that my life has changed so much and so fast in the last month or so and I'm very happy for it. Although my past comes to visit me from time to time *even when not wanted* it's not a bad thing though. These visits are just helping me reflect upon myself and provide other changes or stop changes that might be happening that shouldn't be. I'm very grateful for this experience even though it freaked me out a tad. Over all I feel that this experience has changed my outlook on life for a positive way. I'm not trying to figure things out by looking at them in a entirely different way. I'm also focusing on myself for a change. I have realized that a lot of my friendships and relationships are just "Take" relationships and not "Give & Take". Now I'm not the one taking, I'm the one that just gives and gives with out much in return. I personally think it's because i'm too nice of a person and I let people walk a little too much on me and they take advantage of this. Well people, That's not going to happen now. I'm a new person or rather I'm a new person in the making. If you have a problem with this people, than tell me if you don't than great we'll be all fine. If you don't love me because of me than I'm sorry, You have to start there before you can run to anywhere else.
A special little thanks to : Emily and Rob for making me realize that my life needed to change and for the better.
On a special note: I'm not running away out of state, however that does not sound that bad. I have far too many people that care about me deeply here. I'm here for good guys and gals, you shall not lose me that easily and I'll never give up. The fight continues... Are you ready?
A special little thanks to : Emily and Rob for making me realize that my life needed to change and for the better.
On a special note: I'm not running away out of state, however that does not sound that bad. I have far too many people that care about me deeply here. I'm here for good guys and gals, you shall not lose me that easily and I'll never give up. The fight continues... Are you ready?