c'mon and rescue me

[blueparisdaisy]

The last few weeks I've been really depressed. And over the last two weeks I'd been feeling like I wasn't good enough for anyone. Which is really strange for me cuz I'm actually a pretty self-confident, independent person who really doesn't give a damn if someone has a problem with me. I mean I don't like being in conflict to people and I don't like having people angry at me, but I'm not afraid to be honest and stick to my opinion. I'm also not someone who has to "follow the crowd." These personality traits dont make me the most popular person but usually I don't care. For some reason the last two weeks it HAS bothered me though. Adri is my best friend and she IS the most popular person. People love her. They think she's funny and cute and boys love her. I've always been her "sidekick." again, never really bothered me. I'm the smart, sarcastic, cynical, jaded one who doesn't date, just gives advice to everyone else. I'm the one who the boys I like never like me (and often like Adrienne instead) and the ones who do like me, I don't like. Again, never been bothered becuz boys are stupid at this age. lol. anyway, for some reason all these things HAD been bothering me and I was really depressed and felt like I wasn't good enough for anyone. On top of this I skipped my period for March and basically had a month of PMS which THANK GOD is now over. Friday night tho I was still in my slump and I was feeling really crappy due to many things, and it just got worse as the night went on. But I went home, went to sleep, and felt better after getting a good night's sleep. Then I had a really nice lunch w/ my family and Laura came over in the afternoon. We went out to get some food for dinner and then to Starbucks and so I spouted off a lot of stuff to her and that made me feel better. And today I feel good too - Kelly (this guy at church, he's 32, but really cool haha) told me I had on a very stlyish outfit (I have to say, I looked hott). I feel good! so maybe I'll be moving out of my slump and stuff.

next weekend is SENIOR TRIP. wooo. me and Adri and three boys - Bobs, Stephen, and Andrew. should be interesting.

on a sad note, I went to Starbucks and Jorge was not there AGAIN. Man w/ greasy hair has replaced him. *sniff* He's either switched locations, gotten a new job, is sick, is on vacation, has a new schedule...gahhh so sad! :( :(