Mystic Pizza
Sometimes I wish life was like a movie. When things go wrong...they always work out. When a girl likes a guy...she always gets him, no matter what the situation. She might be poor, and he's rich, it doesn't matter. A guy might have to pay a cheerleader, the girl of his dreams, a thousand bucks just to go out with him for one month...and she ends up falling in love with him. He might be the biggest dork in school, but things work out for him. A street rat might fall in love with a princess, and just when he thinks things won't work, they do.
Why can't real life be like that. Why, in real life, do things hardly ever work out the way we want them to. Why is it that whenever I think I find a guy I like, something always comes up that makes it not work out. Why can't the man of my dreams come rescue me from my tower and ask me to live happily ever after with him by my side. Why can't somebody see me for who I am, and not the way I dress or put out. Why can't somebody see who I am for inside.
You know what my biggest fear is? That I won't get that fairy tale ending that I see in movies. I'm not askin for the perfect story, I'm just askin to be happy. People always tell me I should be more outgoing, and I know that and I always have more fun when I am...but when I'm not happy with myself, it's hard to be that way ya know?
It's really annoying when like my grandpa says things like, "I bet you got boys chasin you all the time down there don't ya." Cuz that just makes me feel even crappier.
The other day I was talkin to Adam about these kinds of things and I asked him, "What should I change about myself to make guys see me?" Gay question, but you'll have that. He told me I should be more outgoing and he hesitated to tell me that I should dress differently. haha. I know I should but I'm just too lazy to dress nice, why dress nice when you can be comfy right? Well anyways, I'm gonna try to do those things in hopes that it will make me feel better about myself.
I shouldn't have to change who I am for someone to notice me, and I don't plan to. I don't plan to start drinking in college just so I can loosen up and fit in, cuz chances are the people who party with me aren't gonna be my real friends that stick with me for life. They'd just be drinkin buddies, like Collin and Jeremy. I don't want that. I want real friends, who I can talk to and friends that I can trust...like you guys.
I'm not depressed, I'm not sad, I'm just ready to fall in love. I know that's extreme, but I totally mean it. I'm with Adam almost everyday, and all he talks about is Kelly. How much he loves her and misses her. I just want that. I wanna have someone that I wanna talk about 24/7. I want to have someone that gives me butterflies in my tummy everytime I think about him.
I know that things will get better, they always do. But when things get better I just want them to stay better. I'm tired of finding something that makes me happy and then have somethin happen where instead it makes me feel crappy.
I wanna be in my movie. The perfect chick flick.
Why can't real life be like that. Why, in real life, do things hardly ever work out the way we want them to. Why is it that whenever I think I find a guy I like, something always comes up that makes it not work out. Why can't the man of my dreams come rescue me from my tower and ask me to live happily ever after with him by my side. Why can't somebody see me for who I am, and not the way I dress or put out. Why can't somebody see who I am for inside.
You know what my biggest fear is? That I won't get that fairy tale ending that I see in movies. I'm not askin for the perfect story, I'm just askin to be happy. People always tell me I should be more outgoing, and I know that and I always have more fun when I am...but when I'm not happy with myself, it's hard to be that way ya know?
It's really annoying when like my grandpa says things like, "I bet you got boys chasin you all the time down there don't ya." Cuz that just makes me feel even crappier.
The other day I was talkin to Adam about these kinds of things and I asked him, "What should I change about myself to make guys see me?" Gay question, but you'll have that. He told me I should be more outgoing and he hesitated to tell me that I should dress differently. haha. I know I should but I'm just too lazy to dress nice, why dress nice when you can be comfy right? Well anyways, I'm gonna try to do those things in hopes that it will make me feel better about myself.
I shouldn't have to change who I am for someone to notice me, and I don't plan to. I don't plan to start drinking in college just so I can loosen up and fit in, cuz chances are the people who party with me aren't gonna be my real friends that stick with me for life. They'd just be drinkin buddies, like Collin and Jeremy. I don't want that. I want real friends, who I can talk to and friends that I can trust...like you guys.
I'm not depressed, I'm not sad, I'm just ready to fall in love. I know that's extreme, but I totally mean it. I'm with Adam almost everyday, and all he talks about is Kelly. How much he loves her and misses her. I just want that. I wanna have someone that I wanna talk about 24/7. I want to have someone that gives me butterflies in my tummy everytime I think about him.
I know that things will get better, they always do. But when things get better I just want them to stay better. I'm tired of finding something that makes me happy and then have somethin happen where instead it makes me feel crappy.
I wanna be in my movie. The perfect chick flick.