I am so embarrassed.
Ok I got off work early today yaaa! I took my friend Shamira to her apt. and then I headed home to get ready for tonight. So I walk through my bedroom door and my whole room is clean like everything; my laundry is done, my papers by my computer organized, bed made, floor swept the whole nine yards. My grandma cleaned my whole room which I'm really happy she did but she may have stumbled apon some very private stuff. Like I have a small waste basket at the end of my bed, I never put a bag in it I always just throw trash in it. Well it has been empty except for three condoms at the bottom of it and I put like a piece of paper on top of them so no one could see them. Well I think she did see them because the trash is empty with a new plastic bag in it right next to my desk and also I found a condom on top of my dresser perfectly placed there like she found it on the floor or something. I am really embarrassed she's not home now, but I know I will have to see her soon I'm just gonna act like she didn't find anything, lol. Anyways I'm gonna go to the club tonight hopefully I'll find a cute boy to kiss and have some fun with. Oh yeah the other day I sent Aron a message on LJ just saying Hi and hope you're doing well. He never responded and I'm OK with that, seriously. Like after I sent him that message a great weight had been lifted off my shoulder like I released the demons of my past relationship with him. Like I haven't thought of him at all lately and that's the way it should be. Jose made a good point he said if you pop up just to say hi to an ex it shows that you're past it all that you moved on... He was right. But that doesn't mean I still don't have love for him... I mean Casey and I we were just talking about it. When you love someone that love doesn't just go away, you just don't get over it like that. It takes time and you may still always love that person and hope that one day that they'll come back to you if not love freely among others. I don't miss him as much as I use to but I still love him, when I say I love you I mean it and I meant it with him. That love will not go away and I rather have it that way; full of love for him than full of hate. I love talking love stuff with Jose like he totally gets me and what it's all about. He's my love guru ha ha ha. Ok well I'm gonna hop into the shower and get ready for some loving tonight lol j/k well maybe ;-)